Monthly Archives: September 2012

Double Destruction

Double Destruction

 

A week ago today, last Sunday, September 9, 2012 CE, Yahweh downloaded several words to my wife Marner. I cannot keep up with His words these days. One of the words He gave her concerned something significant happening on 9/11/12, trouble was coming. Well, you can watch the daily news and see what happened on September 11, 2012 CE. This trouble may not go away until Yeshua shows up. My only question is: Why has not America declared war on Libya, Egypt, Yemen, and all those other nations who are attacking our embassies?

 

The other word from Yahweh is that things will begin to happen in twos, double trouble, if you will. The people have not been listening to Yahweh, they have relegated Him to an irrelevant memorial, like Martin Luther King, Jr. M.L.K. is dead and gone, Yahweh is not. His words, not Marner’s. In Noah’s day, Yahweh destroyed the earth with water, this time He will destroy with fire. Watch for fireballs from Heaven, burning cities to the ground. Think violent storms and fires at the same time. Double trouble. Double Destruction, from Yahweh. Why are people around the world, even in New York City, smelling burning sulfur? Well, quite simply, the Lake of Fire is burning its way to the surface of the earth, just in time for the Grand Finale of Revelation 19:19-21, “And I saw the beast, the kings of the earth, and their armies, gathered together to make war against Him who sat on the horse and against His army. 20Then the beast was captured, and with him the false prophet who worked signs in his presence, by which he deceived those who received the mark of the beast and those who worshiped his image. These two were cast alive into the lake of fire burning with brimstone. 21And the rest were killed with the sword which proceeded from the mouth of Him who sat on the horse. And all the birds were filled with their flesh.” Lakes are on the surface of the earth, are they not? NO MORE FISHING! Today is the day to fish for men’s souls. Personally, I could not think of a more appropriate place for the Lake of Fire than New York City, right under the United Nations building!! Father, may I make that a request? A word to the wise, get out of the cities!! Man, especially politicians, have no answers to the world’s problems. Man’s basic problem is sin, and until we repent and turn to Yahweh for salvation, our problems on earth will only get worse. Yahweh has promised to judge the earth. Judgment Day is just around the corner. We are the final generation on earth as we know it. The Scripture reference for today is Jeremiah 17.

 

Jeremiah 17:1-18, ““The sin of Judah is written with a pen of iron;

With the point of a diamond it is engraved

    On the tablet of their heart,

And on the horns of your altars,

2  While their children remember

Their altars and their wooden images

By the green trees on the high hills (idolatry).

3  O My mountain in the field,

I will give as plunder your wealth, all your treasures,

And your high places of sin within all your borders.

4  And you, even yourself,

Shall let go of your heritage which I gave you;

And I will cause you to serve your enemies

In the land which you do not know;

For you have kindled a fire in My anger which shall burn forever.” (Notice man has kindled this fire of judgment, not Yahweh.)

5Thus says Yahweh:

“Cursed is the man who trusts in man

And makes flesh his strength (trusting man literally brings on the curse!!),

Whose heart departs from Yahweh.

6  For he shall be like a shrub in the desert,

And shall not see when good comes,

But shall inhabit the parched places in the wilderness,

In a salt land which is not inhabited.

7  “Blessed is the man who trusts in Yahweh,

And whose hope is Yahweh (trusting Yahweh literally brings on the blessing!!).

8  For he shall be like a tree planted by the waters,

Which spreads out its roots by the river,

And will not fear when heat comes;

But its leaf will be green,

And will not be anxious in the year of drought (2012 CE),

Nor will cease from yielding fruit.

9  “The heart is deceitful above all things,

And desperately wicked;

Who can know it?

10 I, Yahweh, search the heart,

I test the mind,

Even to give every man according to his ways,

According to the fruit of his doings.

11As a partridge that broods but does not hatch,

So is he who gets riches, but not by right;

It will leave him in the midst of his days,

And at his end he will be a fool.”

12 A glorious high throne from the beginning

Is the place of our sanctuary.

13 O Yahweh, the hope of Israel,

All who forsake You shall be ashamed.

“Those who depart from Me

Shall be written in the earth,

Because they have forsaken Yahweh,

The fountain of living waters.”

14 Heal me, O Yahweh, and I shall be healed;

Save me, and I shall be saved,

For You are my praise.

15 Indeed they say to me,

“Where is the word of Yahweh?

Let it come now!”

16 As for me, I have not hurried away from being a shepherd who follows You,

Nor have I desired the woeful day;

You know what came out of my lips;

It was right there before You.

17 Do not be a terror to me;

You are my hope in the day of doom.

18 Let them be ashamed who persecute me,

But do not let me be put to shame;

Let them be dismayed,

But do not let me be dismayed.

Bring on them the day of doom,

And destroy them with double destruction!

 

Like it or not, war is coming to our planet. Right now, as we write, the military might of 25 nations is assembled near the Strait of Hormuz in the Persian Gulf. Our governments say they are going to have military exercises. Well, that’s practice for war. We don’t hate Muslims, but they do hate us. Unfortunately, most people on this planet are following demons, instead of following Yahweh. Muslims call Israel the little Satan and America is the Great Satan, while they also follow Satan. America and most of the West have turned their backs on Yahweh and now follow Satan, so yes, the label may be more true today than ever before. Satan doesn’t care which label you wear, as long as you hate your neighbor and destroy each other. All religions on this earth are Satan’s religions, unless you are born again in Yeshua HaMashiach. People are spiritually blind, Yahweh is trying to awaken the spirits in His human creation. Unfortunately, most people do not turn to Yahweh unless He brings on chastening and discipline in the form of judgments. Many will not listen even then. But no man will have an excuse that He has not been given the chance to get saved. We only need faith for awhile longer, because once Yahweh peels back the sky and we can see directly into His Heavenly throne room from earth, you won’t need faith to believe in Him, for you will see Him and His Son for yourself. Atheists will finally shut up.

 

I don’t like to bring bad news, but Yahweh is the one Who talks about the day of doom, the day of great darkness, gloom and doom. But that won’t last long, only until Yahweh’s wrath is poured out. Once He has judged the world, the light of His Kingdom will shine forever on earth. Today’s prophets are trying to guess which war we’re about to embark on. Will it be Daniel 11, Daniel 8, Psalm 83, Ezekiel 38-39, Isaiah 17, or Jeremiah 46? Does it really matter? These wars will be violent death for millions or billions of people. Yeshua said we would see wars until He returns, culminating in the Battle of Armageddon. Today is the day of salvation. Today is the day to repent. Tonight begins a new Hebrew year, with the Feast of Trumpets. This Feast is a trumpet call to Repentance. On Tishri 10, will be Yom Kippur, the day of Redemption. It is also a form of Judgment Day, sin is judged on Yom Kippur. On Tishri 15, we begin to celebrate the Feast of Tabernacles, our 7 day Feast of Rejoicing in Yeshua, our soon-coming Groom.

 

We expect to be raptured on one of the upcoming Feasts of Trumpets. Will it be tonight? I don’t know. Will we be raptured on one of the near future Feasts of Trumpets? I surely hope so. I expect to experience this rapture thing in the next 10-15 years. But as we watch the prophetic world events unfolding before our eyes, we know we may see double trouble, or double destruction, before we are raptured. No time to fear, just repent and warn everyone you know to get right with Yahweh. You can forget the prosperity gospel, Ben Bernanke just guaranteed the final financial collapse of America with his infinite quantitative easing policy. China, Brazil, and Russia are grinning today!! I hope you have collected a little extra food, water and emergency supplies for what’s coming. The feds are contemplating outlawing the sale of ammunition to private citizens in America. Contemplate the ramifications of that policy!! Islam is the Beast system that will overtake the world. You are free to fight it if you so desire, but be prepared to be a martyr for Yeshua!! Did you know there are over 2,100 Muslim mosques in America today? Yeah, we’re in deep trouble, double destruction cometh.

 

To get more of the context of Jeremiah 17, you should read the rest of the chapter to see what kindled the fire of Yahweh’s anger. Oh, why not, I’ll just print it right here for your convenience: verses 19-27, “Thus Yahweh said to me: “Go and stand in the gate of the children of the people, by which the kings of Judah come in and by which they go out, and in all the gates of Jerusalem; 20and say to them, ‘Hear the word of Yahweh, you kings of Judah, and all Judah, and all the inhabitants of Jerusalem, who enter by these gates. 21Thus says Yahweh: “Take heed to yourselves, and bear no burden on the Sabbath day, nor bring it in by the gates of Jerusalem; 22nor carry a burden out of your houses on the Sabbath day, nor do any work, but hallow the Sabbath day, as I commanded your fathers. 23But they did not obey nor incline their ear, but made their neck stiff, that they might not hear nor receive instruction (warning, reproof).

24“And it shall be, if you heed Me carefully,” says Yahweh, “to bring no burden through the gates of this city on the Sabbath day, but hallow the Sabbath day, to do no work in it, 25then shall enter the gates of this city kings and princes sitting on the throne of David, riding in chariots and on horses, they and their princes, accompanied by the men of Judah and the inhabitants of Jerusalem; and this city shall remain forever. 26And they shall come from the cities of Judah and from the places around Jerusalem, from the land of Benjamin and from the lowland, from the mountains and from the South, bringing burnt offerings and sacrifices, grain offerings and incense, bringing sacrifices of praise to the house of Yahweh.

27“But if you will not heed Me to hallow the Sabbath day, such as not carrying a burden when entering the gates of Jerusalem on the Sabbath day, then I will kindle a fire in its gates, and it shall devour the palaces of Jerusalem, and it shall not be quenched.”’”

 

The Sabbath came along long before the Torah, only seven days after creation, actually. It was there during the Law of Moses days. Yeshua and all the apostles observed Sabbath. The early Christian church observed Sabbath. Sabbath is still here today. Sabbath will be around for ALL eternity. The Sabbath is a sealing sign between Yahweh and His people. Talk about a red line. You figure it out.

 

Happy New Year,

 

Gene Benjamin II

September 16, 2012 CE

 

p.s. Today’s bumper sticker: It’s NOT the movie, stupid!

The Eighth Overcomer

The Eighth Overcomer

 

Luke 21:29-36, “Then He spoke to them a parable: “Look at the fig tree (nation of Israel), and all the trees (individual Israelites). 30When they are already budding, you see and know for yourselves that summer is now near. 31So you also, when you see these things happening (the Matthew 24, Mark 13, and Luke 21 events), know that the kingdom of Yahweh is near. 32Assuredly, I say to you, this generation (our generation) will by no means pass away till all things (all prophesied end-times events will take place in our generation) take place. 33Heaven and earth will pass away, but My words will by no means pass away.

34“But take heed to yourselves, lest your hearts be weighed down with carousing, drunkenness, and cares of this life, and that (Judgment) Day (the Great Tribulation) come on you unexpectedly. 35For it will come as a snare on all those who dwell on the face of the whole earth. 36Watch therefore (NOT the mainstream media, that is all propaganda), and pray always that you may be counted worthy to escape all these things that will come to pass, and to stand before the Son of Man.””

 

In Luke 21:36, Yeshua is telling us that not everyone will have to face the Great Tribulation, some will be counted worthy to escape all the nasty events of the seven year Tribulation period. The group of people He is referring to is the Barley company of saints, the Bride of Christ, represented in the Spring Feast of Passover, the barley grain harvest. I’ve written before about the three sets of saints, as seen in the three Feasts of Passover, Shavuot, and Sukkot. The barley harvest represents the saints raptured before the Tribulation begins. The wheat harvest (Feast of Pentecost, Shavuot) represents the saints saved during the Tribulation, many of whom will be martyred for their faith. The grape harvest (Sukkot, Feast of Tabernacles) represents the saints saved during the end of the Great Tribulation, or Judgment Day. Barley is winnowed by simply tossing it into the wind of the Holy Spirit. Wheat is threshed, or beaten with rods, on the threshing floor, meaning pressure must be applied to these saints to get them saved. Grapes must be crushed in judgment to bring them into the life-giving experience of the new wine.

 

Anyway, since we are still in the beginnings of sorrows, each of us still has a chance to qualify as worthy to ESCAPE the Tribulation through the pre-tribulation rapture of the barley company saints. So, is there anything in the Scriptures that tells us how to qualify as an overcomer, worthy to escape all these things? The apostle John gives us a little insight to the overcomer in 1 John 5:1-5, “Whoever believes that Yeshua is the Messiah is born of Yahweh, and everyone who loves Him who begot also loves him who is begotten of Him. 2By this we know that we love the children of Yahweh, when we love Yahweh and keep (all 10 of) His commandments. 3For this is the love of Yahweh, that we keep (all 10 of) His commandments. And (all 10 of) His commandments are not burdensome. 4For whatever is born of Yahweh overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world—our faith. 5Who is he who overcomes the world, but he who believes that Yeshua is the Son of Yahweh?” The first thing we learn about being an overcomer, is that he is a person of faith in Yeshua HaMashiach. You don’t have to be a person of great faith, just plain ordinary saving faith. The faith you have to get your soul saved is the same faith that makes you a world overcomer! You believe Yeshua and His word, simple.

 

Let’s go to the letters to the seven churches in Revelation 2 and 3 and find out what else Yeshua teaches us about overcomers. In Revelation 2:1-7, we have the first letter to the church at Ephesus. Notice what Yeshua praises them for: they labor in the field, making disciples. They exhibit patience with the saints. They cannot bear evil people; anyone putting up with Muslims today? Hmmm. They test those proclaiming to speak for Yahweh, and find most of them are liars. They persevere in their struggle during hard times. They’ve developed a lifestyle of repentance, something we desperately need today. They hate the deeds of the Nicolaitans. Holman’s Bible Dictionary explains: “NICOLAITANS (Nihk oh lay’ ituhns) Heretical group in the early church who taught immorality and idolatry. They are condemned in Revelation 2:6, 15 for their practices in Ephesus and Pergamon. Thyatira apparently had resisted the false prophecy they preached (Rev. 2:20-25). The Nicolaitans have been linked to the type of heresy taught by Balaam (Num. 25:1-2; 2 Pet. 2:15), especially the pagan feasts and orgies that they apparently propagated in the first-century church.” But he who overcomes in all these things receives this promise from Yeshua: he gets to eat from the tree of life in the midst of the Paradise of Yahweh. Sounds like a great reward.

 

Yeshua’s second letter is to the church in Smyrna. Yeshua understood that they were undergoing tribulations and poverty in the flesh, though they were rich in the Spirit. These guys sound more like the wheat company, they were told to PREPARE for tribulation and be faithful unto death, so they could receive the crown of life. A life of faithfulness is more important to Yeshua than worldly riches. Though this was a suffering church, Yeshua told them the overcomer would not be hurt by the second death in hell, the lake of fire. In other words, they will be saved, though as through fire. These saints were not going up in a pre-tribulation rapture.

 

The third letter is to the church at Pergamos. Pergamos was an evil city to dwell in. Satan’s very throne was in that city! But these saints hold fast to Yeshua’s name, and do not deny Yeshua’s faith. These folks also needed to repent, they were close to falling into the trap of the doctrine of the Nicolaitans also. Pagan idolatrous worship and immoral orgies have no place in Yahweh’s church. Repentance is again the theme for the overcomer. The overcomer receives hidden manna to eat and gets a new name written on a white stone.

 

The fourth letter is to the church at Thyatira. These overcoming saints demonstrated love, service to Yahweh and His church, faith, patience, and good deeds. Sounds like the fruit of the Spirit was flowing and growing here. Yeshua encouraged them to hold onto their sound doctrine of the faith. The overcomer receives authority to rule over the nations with Yeshua and gets the morning star! Wow, you might get your very own solar system to rule!!

 

The fifth letter is to the church at Sardis. Revelation 3:4 shows that there are only a few worthy overcomers in Sardis. They will get to walk with Yeshua in their righteousness. Verse 3 sounds like a phrase right out of Matthew 24, they had stopped watching for Yeshua’s return, so He threatens to come upon them like a thief. Are you still a watcher today, or are you just going with the flow of the world into paganism? Again, they needed to repent and hold on to their faith and strengthen the doctrine they had already received. The overcomer’s name remains in the Book of Life and Yeshua Himself will confess the overcomer’s name before the Heavenly Father and His angels!

 

The sixth letter is to the church at Philadelphia. These folks were somewhat mature saints in the faith. They keep Yeshua’s word and don’t deny His name. Revelation 3:10 shows that because these folks have persevered in their faith, Yeshua will cause these saints to escape the Tribulation. These saints are the barley company. These saints will be raptured pre-tribulation!! These guys already possess the crown of life. These are true overcomers. They are made pillars in Yahweh’s Temple. They get Yahweh’s name, Yeshua’s name, and the name New Jerusalem written on them!! These overcomers will never leave the presence of Yahweh again!! You want to be one of these overcomers.

 

The seventh and final letter is to the church at Laodicea. One word defines this church, the bad attitude of lukewarmness. Yeshua loves these saints, but must rebuke and chasten them to encourage them to repent and open up their hearts to fellowship with Yeshua. These people are wealthy in the flesh, but absolute paupers in the spirit. These saints have a need to be refined through fire; they still don’t have on their garments of righteousness. Their worldliness has blinded them spiritually. A goal for these folks is a spirit of zealousness for Yeshua and His kingdom. They need a spiritual fire lit in their spirits. Once they allow the fire of the Holy Spirit to burn off the world’s chaff from their lives, they can dine with Yeshua as an overcomer, right on His throne. Yeshua re-light (anapto, enkindle) that fire in us.

 

The eighth overcomer is identified in Revelation 21:6-7, “And He said to me, “It is done! I am the Alpha and the Omega (Alef Tav), the Beginning and the End. I will give of the fountain of the water of life freely to him who thirsts. 7He who overcomes shall inherit all things, and I will be his Mighty One and he shall be My son.” This overcomer inherits all things in the Kingdom of Yahweh. He receives the ultimate inheritance, sonship, his adoption into Yahweh’s family is complete when the New Jerusalem comes down to earth, when Yahweh descends from Heaven to dwell with His children forever on a renewed earth. Being one of the first seven overcomers is a great privilege, but attaining to the eighth overcomer, becoming a son of Yahweh, having His name upon you forever, is the greatest privilege and benefit one could ever imagine. At home, with your family, in your Father’s house forever, kicking it with Yeshua, Yahweh, and Holy Spirit for all eternity, it doesn’t get any better than that!! Are you thirsty for the King and His Kingdom yet?

 

Happy New Year and Happy Birthday Yeshua,

 

Gene Benjamin II

September 15, 2012 CE

He Did What!

 

Psalms 34:6, “This poor man cried, and the Lord heard him, and saved him out of all his troubles!”

Deuteronomy 30:19, “I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing: therefore choose life that both thou and thy seed may live!”

Psalms 23:1, “Walk in his ways and keep his commandments!  The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.”

Mark 1:15,“And saying, The time is fulfilled, and the kingdom of God is at hand: repent ye, and believe the gospel.”

Psalms 37:7, “Rest in the lord, and wait patiently for him.”

Ephesians  4:5, “One Lord, one faith, one baptism.”

Psalms 24:1-2, “The Earth is the Lord’s, and the fullness thereof; the world, and they that dwell therein.”

Psalms 32:1, “Blessed is he whose transgression is forgiven, whose sin is covered.”

Matthew 6:33, “But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.”

Luke: 9:56, “For the son of man is not come to destroy men’s lives, but to save them.”

 

HE DID WHAT!

 

Marner Campbell-Benjamin

 

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Romans 1:16, “For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ…”

 

Romans 10:4, “For Christ is the end of the law for righteousness to every one that believeth.”

 

Psalms 47:6, “Sing praises to God, sing praises: sing praises unto our King, sing praises”

 

Proverbs 10:15, “The rich man’s wealth is his strong city: the destruction of the poor is their poverty.”

 

Revelation 22:12-13, “And, behold, I come quickly; and my reward is with me….”

 

John 1:11, “Beloved, follow not that which is evil, but that which is good. He that doeth good is of God; but he that doeth evil hath not seen God.”

 

Matthew 10:7, “And as ye go, preach, saying, The Kingdom of Heaven is at hand.”


Author’s Notes

 

While growing up as a child in Ocala, Florida, it was a joy and delight to sit on my grandfather’s lap. We rocked back and forth while he read the 23rd Psalm to me over and over. It was rewarding to hear him read Psalms every Sunday. It was rewarding, but I used to hate going over it continuously. Grandpa Willie died at 97 years old about the time I had my first child. I vividly remember conversations we shared in the wooden swing every week; I can still recite the 23rd Psalm, 100 Psalm and my favorite one, the 24th Psalm. The Lord is my strength and my delight! He hears me when I pray and listens when I call.

It all started when the ice cream man came ringing his bell near my parents’ home. It was hot as volcanic ash, and sweat was pouring out my pores beneath my spaghetti tank top. Florida is hot in the summer time! If only I had a quarter, I would stop the ice cream man, I could hear his music coming close. Then all of a sudden I spotted a crispy greenback  making a landing on my dad’s tailored Bermuda lawn. What a miracle, this was my lucky day. A whole dollar came out of nowhere, and I would have 75 cents left.

Miracles have happened to me for as long as I can remember. Supernatural miracles  came out of the blue, just by one thought. Jobs, gas, food, clothes, friends, cars, cash, and even ice cream! Matthew 6:25-34 says, “Therefore I say unto you, take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what you shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment? 26Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father  feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they? 27Which of you by taking thought can add one cubit unto his stature? 28And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin: 29And yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30Wherefore, If God so clothe the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is cast into the oven, shall he not much more cloth you, O ye of little faith? 31Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? Or, What shall we drink? Or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed? 32(For after all these things do the Gentiles seek) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things. 33But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and  all these things shall be added unto you. 34Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.”

He has it all in control, if we will only believe. John 14:14 says, “If you will ask anything in my name, I will do it.” Yeshua (Jesus) listens to us, hears us when we call, but do we listen to Him?

HE DID WHAT tells about all the testimonies that I can remember from my teen life at the age of 16 up to my late fifties.  I pray that my testimonies will help you make the most important decision in your life, receiving Yeshua HaMashiach, Jesus Christ, as your Master and Savior:  John 3:16,  “For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.”

 

 

HE DID WHAT!

 

 

 

TABLE OF CONTENTS

 

One Friday Night

 

Jesus Freak

 

Miracle Mitten

 

The Vision

 

The Break of Dawn

 

Yahweh Owns It All!

 

The Money Bag

 

Almost Burger Murder

 

An Angel of Light

 

The Perfect Storm

 

The Printed Page

 

Riches of Secret Places

 

All I Need IS $10,000

 

One Stormy Night

 

My Beloved is White and Ruddy….

 

Mighty Everyday Miracles!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Dedication

 

I dedicate this book to the world and my Savior Yeshua, also

Emory, Auriel, Ethan, and Devin (my grandchildren) and to my beloved families: The Harveys, Gillings, Smiths and my beloved husband, Gene Benjamin II. I want to thank my Heavenly Father for all his goodness and His connections through Dr. Rennie and Marina McLean. Thanks so much Jerry D. Hobbs for encouraging me to finish this for our Savior Yeshua!

 

Marner Campbell-Benjamin

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


One Friday Night!

        It was hot and dreary, and the wind was blowing relentlessly. Ocala was boring enough without me having to babysit my younger brother again, on a Friday night. I had turned sixteen 2 months prior and I thought life was going to change, get more exciting and adventurous. It seemed like the only people who were having all the fun were my parents. For the last four summers, all they did was party at someone else’s residence or I was trading off my bedroom for some of their visiting party friends. The barbeques were great, the food fantastic, but giving up my bedroom for the couch was another story.

Tonight I was supposed to have been hanging out with my girlfriend, Sally.  But no, I had to babysit again.  My brother was getting on my nerves, and he wanted to play my stereo. I agreed with him tonight, because that meant I could have the television all to myself. After switching the channels, I decided to listen to a gentleman singing, How Great Thou Art. Billy Graham was going to be preaching to the youth tonight. I was drawn to listen to every word as he introduced himself. After listening to him preach for about 45 minutes, I began to listen to my conscience constrain me vehemently to his voice. Mr. Graham was stating that we all must be born again of water and of the spirit. He repeated Luke 15:26, “If any man come to me, and hate not his father, and his mother, and wife, and children, and brethren, and sisters, yea, and his own life also, he cannot be my disciple.” Then he recited a scripture from Luke 9:24, “For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: but whosover will lose his life for my sake, the same shall save it.” Then he went on with Luke 9:26, “For whosoever shall be ashamed of me and of my words, of him shall the Son of man be ashamed, when he shall come in his own glory, and in his Father’s, and of the holy angels.” I was astonished and delighted. I had never heard anyone speak with such authority and power! It was as if the earth stood still. I finished listening just in time, before my parents walked in the door. I was glad to have been relieved from my brother, so I could go to the privacy of my room.

I found myself kneeling down to my God, and asking him to come into my heart and to forgive all my sins as Mr. Graham had addressed. Afterwards, I quietly laid down for a good night’s sleep. The next day as I awakened, I noticed right away that my soul felt alive, my hands looked different, my whole body seemed completely new inside and out. I stepped outside and noticed the sand, trees, and the environment just wasn’t what it was on Friday. I had this awakened spirit that made me reach out to others; I wanted to tell the whole world what had happened to me.

Saturday, I went to the local county fair with my parents and brother, and I could see evil forces around some people, and I could see auras around others that had complete peace. Wow, what excitement I had discovered! My parents just thought I had sneaked some of the liquor out of the dining room bureau. Jesus was alive, he did exactly as he said he would do. I just could not get enough of his holy words. I stay glued to my Bible. When attending church, I was taking part in the Sunday school more and sharing my new conversion. I had a new life in Christ Jesus, this was going to be a great summer after all. Sometimes, I just didn’t even feel like eating. I could understand Luke 4:4 which says, “It is written, ‘That man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word of God.’”

 

 

Jesus Freak!

        Time flew by the last two years of high school. Graduation day came, and I started college at Santa Fe Community College. It was a thirty minute drive from my small home town of Ocala. Gainesville was a hot town, much larger than Ocala, and folks commuted daily to the University of Florida from all over Florida. My parents had attended the University of Florida, and I attempted but decided to check out the community college before leaping to a large campus.

Santa Fe Community College was interesting, and I began to meet all types of diversities. I met a few young adults who believed in Jesus Christ,  but many were party goers, and drug pushers, and I chose not to mix with them. Charmaine Taylor was smart and savvy, and we had most of our classes together. So I followed her like baby ducks followed their Mommy at the Alachua Park.

I admit I was odd. I was shy, but cute, and the girls on campus were watching their boyfriends whenever I stepped into the study hall or the cafeteria. I hadn’t tried to date after my last episode of disappointment and embarrassment with Dwight Brown. After becoming a born-again Christian, Dwight and I went our separate ways. He just could not adjust to the fact that I loved the Lord and wanted to please God Almighty instead of him. He picked on me day and night and called me “Jesus Freak”. I told him we needed to take some space and really consider if we wanted to continue our connections.

Autumn arrived during the rush of semester exams and I was getting lonely for someone to hang out with, besides my annoying brother. Even when guys tried to date me or would come over to my house, he would turn on the water hose and spray water on them. I was just not interested in anyone since Dwight left the picture. I concentrated on my studies and witnessed to others whom I came across about my testimony of Jesus Christ.

I started a part-time job working in the Student Affairs Administrative Office, so I could have extra spending money for the approaching holidays. I figured this would keep my mind off the boring hours that manipulated my mind continually. Jackie Harris was my new boss. Jackie was full of life and entertaining sequences. She had the real personality of a stand-up comedian that reminded me of Flip Wilson’s character, Geraldene. I was just glad to be on somebody’s payroll since my Burger King days.

College floated by quickly that first year. Charmaine was getting married, and I had met a new candidate for dating. Joe Taylor almost knocked me over in the hall on campus before we became acquainted. He was really good-looking and polite and had that special charm about him. I smiled in my heart and thought it might not hurt to get involved with a new person and take my mind off the past. Joe drove a 1971 Volkswagen Beetle. On Sundays, he would come by, and we would go for rides. I can remember the stick shift and I wondered how anyone could drive that vehicle. It puttered and shook whenever you would take off. It was a light lime-colored car, and Joe always had it clean inside and out. He dressed so nice, and I began to like some of his gentlemen ways.

Joe went to church with me one Sunday and appeared to love the Lord as myself, but he never would talk about Jesus too much but rather his future. He wanted to make a good living. He wanted fine houses and cars. Joe lost a brother at the young age of 30 and would talk about it quite often. “My brother taught me how to drive tractor-trailer and I miss him so much”, he would explain. I could tell he was going places in his life. Joe began to come over often to visit me. He asked my father if he could come sometime on a weekday to see me after he got off from work. Joe appeared like he really was interested in knowing me and my family better. I was beginning to like him, but I just didn’t feel like it was going anyplace. I felt like we would only be friends.

Christmas was coming, and I was so tired of studying. I had attended Charmaine’s wedding and life moved on. Gainesville was lazy and hot even in the winter months, and I needed an extracurricular. I played my music quite a bit. I even played my clarinet with my cousin Kearin the following summer and thought about taking extra lessons. Oh God, why am I so bored? Can’t there be something more to do with my life? Joe and I went shopping for holiday gifts. He wanted to get my brother Gino something special and something for my parents of course. We ended up buying a big fruit basket with oranges, grapefruits, peaches, grapes, bananas, nuts, and candies all in one beautiful wicker basket. Joe surprised my brother with his own stereo so he could stop fighting with me over mine. After driving, walking, and eating ice cream cones, Joe and I went to a movie. I can’t remember what the movie title was, even now. I was tired and wanted to go home.

The holidays passed, and I was now teaching Sunday school classes at my father’s church. I call it my father’s church because he had just received his pastor’s license and was now an assistant minister. The teens in my class loved to hear me talk about Jesus mission. I loved listening to the Sermon on the Mount that my father played on Sunday mornings before leaving for church. Jesus can enlighten you just in the time you need him the most. John 4:14 says, “But whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst; but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing up into everlasting life.”

April 18, 1972, I became the new wife of Joe Taylor. Joe was excited about marrying me, before he enlisted in the Armed Forces. He enlisted in the Air Force, and I finished my Associates Degree in Psychology at Santa Fe Community College. Time flies when you are having fun! I finished college and attended the graduation ceremonies on June 23, 1972. Joe flew home to assist me, and I traveled with him after his basic training at Lackland Air Force Base in San Antonio, Texas.

Texas was hot. Hotter than Florida ever was, and I was decorating our new apartment. After training, Joe and I arrived in Ft Meyers, Florida, to enjoy our honeymoon. My father let Joe borrow his shiny new car, and we rented a cottage on the beach. Life appeared grand, and I was extricated from childhood. My mom was worried about me living away from home for the first time. She was worried, and I felt free for the first time in a very long time, or should I say, since Yeshua freed me with His blood.

After our brief honeymoon, we flew back to our new apartment. I was glad that Joe hadn’t lived on base with all those adventurous army brats. I loved the quaint little apartment we chose, not too far from the seaside. I was looking forward to attending Lubbock University in the fall, when Joe moved to Lubbock. I wanted to maintain my studies in psychology and obtain my Bachelors Degree. Joe was turned down from his job offer as traffic controller and was given a security assignment instead. He wasn’t happy with the decision.

I had met some Christian friends and attended a Jesus group on Friday nights. It was great to be around spirit-filled believers like ourselves. We all would meet together and share items, food, money and go out on the streets to witness on Saturdays and Sundays. The group called themselves, “The Children of God”. We would play inspirational songs with the guitar, drums, and trumpets and lift up the Name of Jesus! We studied the gospels of John, Luke, Matthew, and the Psalms. The ladies would cook, clean, attend the kids, and shop for the group as a whole. I was very happy to have someone to fellowship with in the Lord.

One day while out, I met a gentleman walking in the park, and asked him, “Do you love the Lord? Do you want to know the Lord? Do you want to invite Jesus in your heart? He said “Yes”! I offered him to repeat after me, “Jesus I want to know you, forgive me of my sins as Romans 10:9-10 says, “That if thou shall confess with thy mouth and believe in thine heart that God has raised him from the dead, thou shall be saved”. I observed him changing and rearranging just like a lit-up Christmas tree! This was the first time I had led someone to Christ. I was full of the Holy Spirit and I was relieved with joy. I gave the gentleman a Bible tract and sent him on his way. Many others I met on the streets and parks in Texas and led to Christ. Jesus showed me that with him, “I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.”

Sadly, Joe and I left the Children of God, after finding out that some of the leaders were dealing in drugs. I began to witness to many as I traveled from Texas to Florida.

 

 

Miracle Mitten

        Joe obtained conscientious objector status from the military, and we moved back to Gainesville, Florida, and purchased a house. I shortly became pregnant with Joe, Jr. Daddy Joe returned to work at his old job driving tractor-trailer. I adjusted to becoming a housewife and mother. Joe Jr. was born on May 16, 1973, in Gainesville, Florida. I was enjoying motherhood and getting acquainted with my new neighbors. One day, Joe walked in and decided he was fed up with Florida and the occupations and wanted to venture out to Colorado. I have no idea how that decision came about or what motivated the option. When Joe Jr. was 3 months old we visited the Grand Canyon in Arizona and drove through Colorado and that was that. We headed back to Florida and sold our home and packed and moved to Colorado within 2 short months. We sold everything we owned and headed out on the highway in our new 1972 Super Beetle Volkswagen; while in the military we had purchased a brand new Beetle. After arriving in Denver, Joe got a job working with Texaco Oil Company, driving an oily gas truck.

I was visiting the Church of Latter Day Saints and got a part time job teaching the four-year olds. I was getting acquainted with my new Colorado neighbors. The Duncans were a nice people and invited me to their ward. I was impressed with some of their teachings and began to go regularly. Joe wasn’t interested and was taking classes at Denver University. Joe and I bought a new home in Aurora, after a few years passed, and I was pregnant with my second child. Celeste, my second child, and Joe Jr. filled most of my time.

The winter had come again and Joe was 4 yrs old and his sister 3 years old. The two of them were crying to go outside, and I was refusing them, because one of Joe’s mittens was missing. “Mommy, I want to go outside in the snow,” yelled Joe, Jr. “I wanna go, I wanna go”, chanted Celeste. I felt a hand touch my shoulder, and I looked back and the other mitten was miraculously lying on the floor. That red mitten had been missing for 2 years! “WOW” was all I could say. I praised the Lord all day long for that simple, supernatural miracle. I, Joe, and Celeste had a wonderful day and I rested in the Lord.

 

 

The Vision

        Revelation 6:12-17 says, “And I beheld when he had opened the sixth seal, and lo, there was a great earthquake; and the sun became black as sackcloth of hair, and the moon became as blood; 13And the stars of heaven fell unto the earth, even as a fig tree casteth her untimely figs, when she is shaken of a mighty wind. 14And the heaven departed as a scroll when it is rolled together; and every mountain and island were moved out of their places. 15And the kings of the earth, and the great men, and the rich men, and chief captains, and the mighty men, and every bondman, and every free man, hid themselves in the dens and in the rocks of the mountain; 16And said to the mountains and rocks, Fall on us, and hid us from the face of him that sitteth on the throne, and from the wrath of the Lamb: 17For the great day of his wrath is come; and who shall be able to stand?”

On my 29th birthday I had been struggling to keep my 9-year marriage afloat. Joe and I had been having relational problems. I was happy in spirit and had been studying Revelation and the gospels daily. I had this ‘high’ and felt as though I could fly to Africa. The Holy Spirit had me enthusiastically engaged in Yahweh’s love. I wasn’t hungry at dinner time. I cooked a wholesome meal for my family. Fried chicken, mashed potatoes, green peas and a garden salad. “Mommy, can I have a cookie, whined Celeste. I was having a hard time getting some space to myself. I read JJ and Celeste a bedtime story and tucked them in at 8pm. Joe was on the road with his company’s oil rig, and I was relieved that I could have the bedroom to myself for a few days.

The third day, I was exhausted from carrying the kids to the mall. I hadn’t eaten in quite a while, but I just wasn’t hungry, but I was full of God’s Spirit. Suddenly at bedtime, I was taken into a deep sleep and awakened to find myself covered in sweat all over my body. Wow, I have to tell you what He did! I was seeing pictures of Abraham, Isaac, Moses and Elijah on an HDTV in living color. Yahweh was talking, his voice was like rolling thunder. “You will see them all alive one day, if you are faithful.” He echoed. Swiftly, the mountains fell into the seas and great thunder caused a mighty earthquake, and the mountains and islands fell out of their places. The earth reeled to and fro like a drunkard as Isaiah 24:19 says. And I lifted up my eyes to heaven and saw the brightness of His coming with all the holy angels. His brightness slew the wicked and I was caught up into the air. He spoke again, “Go ye into all the world and preach the gospel.”  I was so amazed and shaken with his powerful voice.

Immediately, I rushed down the hall. The Holy Ghost flung me down throughout the house, wherefore I couldn’t stand up straight. It felt as though I had drunk four quarts of wine. I tried to get back to the bedroom and noticed Joe had come in from his three day journey. Out of the blue a powerful spirit grabbed me on my left side, and I could hear noises that I could not understand. Then on my right I heard Yahweh again, “Take your hands off of her, she is mine,” shouted the voice of God. The wicked spirit vanished immediately and I was at peace.

I went to my husband’s side and he was tied and in pain. I placed my hands on him and he was relieved. I had the anointing of the glory of God. I tried talking to Joe about my experience and he didn’t comment. The next morning I talked to my children about the love of God and led them to the grace of his salvation. Celeste and Joe, Jr. repeated the salvation prayer with me and asked Jesus into their hearts. Jesus says, “Suffer the little children to come unto me.”  Matthew 19:14.

As we enter the END TIMES, it is good that everyone is familiar with Matthew 24 and Psalm 91. I will copy Matthew 24 below. It reminds me of that great vision I had! Matthew 24, “And Jesus went out, and departed from the temple: and his disciples came to him for to show him the buildings of the temple. 2And Jesus said unto them, See ye not all these things? verily I say unto you, There shall not be left here one stone upon another, that shall not be thrown down. 3And as he sat upon the mount of Olives, the disciples came unto him privately, saying, Tell us, when shall these things be? and what shall be the sign of thy coming, and of the end of the world?

4And Jesus answered and said unto them, Take heed that no man deceive you. 5For many shall come in my name, saying, I am Christ; and shall deceive many. 6And ye shall hear of wars and rumours of wars: see that ye be not troubled: for all these things must come to pass, but the end is not yet. 7For nation shall rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom: and there shall be famines, and pestilences, and earthquakes, in divers places. 8All these are the beginning of sorrows. 9Then shall they deliver you up to be afflicted, and shall kill you: and ye shall be hated of all nations for my name’s sake. 10And then shall many be offended, and shall betray one another, and shall hate one another. 11And many false prophets shall rise, and shall deceive many. 12And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold. 13But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved. 14And this gospel of the kingdom shall be preached in all the world for a witness unto all nations; and then shall the end come. 15When ye therefore shall see the abomination of desolation, spoken of by Daniel the prophet, stand in the holy place, (whoso readeth, let him understand:) 16Then let them which be in Judaea flee into the mountains: 17Let him which is on the housetop not come down to take any thing out of his house: 18Neither let him which is in the field return back to take his clothes. 19And woe unto them that are with child, and to them that give suck in those days! 20But pray ye that your flight be not in the winter, neither on the sabbath day: 21For then shall be great tribulation, such as was not since the beginning of the world to this time, no, nor ever shall be. 22And except those days should be shortened, there should no flesh be saved: but for the elect’s sake those days shall be shortened. 23Then if any man shall say unto you, Lo, here is Christ, or there; believe it not. 24For there shall arise false Christs, and false prophets, and shall show great signs and wonders; insomuch that, if it were possible, they shall deceive the very elect. 25Behold, I have told you before. 26Wherefore if they shall say unto you, Behold, he is in the desert; go not forth: behold, he is in the secret chambers; believe it not. 27For as the lightning cometh out of the east, and shineth even unto the west; so shall also the coming of the Son of man be. 28For wheresoever the carcase is, there will the eagles be gathered together. 29Immediately after the tribulation of those days shall the sun be darkened, and the moon shall not give her light, and the stars shall fall from heaven, and the powers of the heavens shall be shaken: 30And then shall appear the sign of the Son of man in heaven: and then shall all the tribes of the earth mourn, and they shall see the Son of man coming in the clouds of heaven with power and great glory. 31And he shall send his angels with a great sound of a trumpet, and they shall gather together his elect from the four winds, from one end of heaven to the other.

32Now learn a parable of the fig tree; When his branch is yet tender, and putteth forth leaves, ye know that summer is nigh: 33So likewise ye, when ye shall see all these things, know that it is near, even at the doors. 34Verily I say unto you, This generation shall not pass, till all these things be fulfilled. 35Heaven and earth shall pass away, but my words shall not pass away. 36But of that day and hour knoweth no man, no, not the angels of heaven, but my Father only. 37But as the days of Noe were, so shall also the coming of the Son of man be. 38For as in the days that were before the flood they were eating and drinking, marrying and giving in marriage, until the day that Noe entered into the ark, 39And knew not until the flood came, and took them all away; so shall also the coming of the Son of man be. 40Then shall two be in the field; the one shall be taken, and the other left. 41Two women shall be grinding at the mill; the one shall be taken, and the other left. 42Watch therefore: for ye know not what hour your Lord doth come. 43But know this, that if the goodman of the house had known in what watch the thief would come, he would have watched, and would not have suffered his house to be broken up. 44Therefore be ye also ready: for in such an hour as ye think not the Son of man cometh. 45Who then is a faithful and wise servant, whom his lord hath made ruler over his household, to give them meat in due season? 46Blessed is that servant, whom his lord when he cometh shall find so doing. 47Verily I say unto you, That he shall make him ruler over all his goods. 48But and if that evil servant shall say in his heart, My lord delayeth his coming; 49And shall begin to smite his fellowservants, and to eat and drink with the drunken; 50The lord of that servant shall come in a day when he looketh not for him, and in an hour that he is not aware of, 51And shall cut him asunder, and appoint him his portion with the hypocrites: there shall be weeping and gnashing of teeth.”

 

The Break of Dawn

        It was Friday night and I was excited to begin my weekly Bible studies with the community. I had placed flyers at the local laundramat and in shopping malls, hoping someone would be interested in coming to learn all about my savior, Jesus Christ. Dawn, my roommate, and I had made lemonade and cookies and cleaned all day so the antique house would be inviting for everyone. We sang old gospel hymns and lifted up the Holy Father! We began to read the gospels. Romans 8:35-39 says, “Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril or sword?” . . .37Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors, through him that loved us. 38For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, 39Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”

Dawn and I enjoyed the evening and wondered where everyone was? Why hadn’t they come? Later we were so wrapped up in Jesus’ arms, we remember where two or three are gathered, Yeshua is in the midst! Dawn has epilepsy, a disorder of the central nervous system. We decided to ask God almighty to heal her in the name of Yeshua. “Father come and restore my body, and relieve me of this crazy disease. I am so tired of falling off my bicycle when I ride to work. I want to be set free indeed. Thank you Father, we ask it in Yeshua’s name, amen and amen”, we both shouted together!

The next morning Dawn called to me, “Marner come quickly, see what God has done, I am healed, I am healed!”

Many years passed. I had moved to Florida and remarried. My new spouse, Larry, and I had moved back to Colorado and wanted to visit Dawn. After seven years she was still praising God for her healing from epilepsy, it never tortured her again. Praise God from whom all blessings flow! Never doubt—just praise and shout!

Isaiah 53:1-5, “Who hath believed our report? and to whom is the arm of the LORD revealed? 2For he shall grow up before him as a tender plant, and as a root out of a dry ground: he hath no form nor comeliness; and when we shall see him, there is no beauty that we should desire him. 3He is despised and rejected of men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief: and we hid as it were our faces from him; he was despised, and we esteemed him not. 4Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted. 5But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.”

 

Yahweh Owns It All

 

I was sleeping in late one Sabbath morning. It was raining, and I was enjoying the moments with my God. I really didn’t have an offering or tithes to give this week and I was upset about it. I felt guilty and ashamed and just decided I wasn’t going to the church today . . . no way! I pulled the bed covers over my head and soaked in my tears. Later, as I drifted off to sleep, I heard a whisper that I had heard so many times before, “I am your God, you are my child. Do you really think that you have to give me something before I give you something?” It was so clear in my mind. The Lord wanted me to come as I was. Psalms 57:1 says, “Be merciful unto me, O God, be merciful unto me: for my soul trusteth in thee: yea, in the shadow of thy wings will I make my refuge, until these calamities be overpast.”  It continues in verse 2, “I will cry unto God most high; unto God that performeth all things for me!”

Recently, God showed me in Psalms 24:1 that everything is his! He owns it all……wow! He can send blessings from any area, any person, any entity, anywhere at any time! Look at that verse, I have read it so many times when I was just a four year old kid. Never did I see it the way I see it today! Psalms 24:1 says: “ The Earth is the LORD’S, and the fullness thereof; the world, and they that dwell therein.”  Yes—He owns it all.

One day I was hurrying to my nursing job. I was living in my rural home near the Sangre de Christo Mountains, about 25 miles southwest of Canon City, Colorado.  It was Independence Day and I was hoping to be free to enjoy the long weekend. But when my employer called, I accepted the assignment, and decided to drive the back way to Green Mountain Falls. Well, as I approached the area, my cell phone rang and the assignment was cancelled. I wasn’t a “happy camper” and told God out loud, “Well that’s really nice, I really needed that job to pay my car payment.” He whispered and told me to pull into a certain gas station in Woodland Park. I pulled off the road and decided to buy a little gas before heading to Colorado Springs. The gentleman inside was nice and I decided to give him a book, The Perfect Storm is Coming, published by IBE, Inc. I usually order these booklets by the box and pass them out. Well, I conversed with the gentleman, and he began telling me about his wife dying of cancer some months back and I told him, funny my spouse had died just last year of cancer as well. It was a divine appointment. Cheerfully, I exited the gas station after pointing to one of the dollar scratch tickets with the red, white and blue colors—celebrating  the 4th of July. I had this strange feeling that came over me to purchase one. Later, as I drove on to Colorado Springs, after almost forgetting about the $1 lotto—I scratched it off. It was $300, just enough to pay my car payment! My car payment is $299.15. Isn’t God good! He even owns lotto tickets!

It was hard times even back in the 90’s. I had gone through another divorce and times were hard. My daughter and I were sharing a 2-bedroom apartment on the west side of Colorado Springs and I was working 2 jobs and tired all the time. I did a morning shift with one company and when it ended at 4pm I came home and ate dinner, and went to my other shift at 7pm to 7am. Well, this month I was short. One of my clients died and I didn’t have enough to pay rent. My daughter, Dione, and I were trying to figure out what we were gonna do to get the $425 for rent, and we needed gas as well. I had one dollar left. We stopped by 7-11 and I purchased one $1 scratch ticket. When returning to the car, fretfully and grieved in spirit, I scratched it off with a worn dime. WOW, I screamed out, Dione, it’s $500! The Lord provides for his children. Just like when Peter in the Bible was told to go to the fish’s mouth to find a coin to pay Yeshua’s and his temple tax! I do believe Yahweh owns everything! Yahweh controls everything! Trust and obey! His voice speaks to us when we listen! Praise God for his faithfulness!

Another lotto story! I  needed to pay rent to a friend that had let me rent a room. It was the year 2009. I had just been paid. I wasn’t happy with my check. I had to make car, insurance, and mortgage payments, and buy food. But my friend had been so wonderful to me by letting me stay at her place and it was time that I give her something to help out with utilities. Well, I gassed up and decided to buy another lotto ticket. It was Sabbath morning and I had just got off a night shift. I rested in the car awhile and scratched off the ticket—praise God, there was $100! I cashed it out and gave the cash to my friend when I walked through the door! The Bible mentions gamblers won’t make it to heaven. I wonder about the excess of it all. But being in His hands and in His control, I feel he supplies our needs through any angle or entity. So I feel we have a living God that responds to us when we ask, seek and knock. I am still praying and asking for guidance in this area . . . but most of the time I am waiting on his response! Let the Holy Spirit guide you into all truth. I feel it’s a matter of listening to his voice and direction for all things! The earth is the Lord’s and the fullness thereof; the world, and they that dwell therein!

Habakkuk was one of those prophets that trusted GOD—read one of his chapters below:

Habakkuk 2, “I will stand upon my watch, and set me upon the tower, and will watch to see what he will say unto me, and what I shall answer when I am reproved. 2And the LORD answered me, and said, Write the vision, and make it plain upon tables, that he may run that readeth it. 3For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry. 4Behold, his soul which is lifted up is not upright in him: but the just shall live by his faith.

5Yea also, because he transgresseth by wine, he is a proud man, neither keepeth at home, who enlargeth his desire as hell, and is as death, and cannot be satisfied, but gathereth unto him all nations, and heapeth unto him all people: 6Shall not all these take up a parable against him, and a taunting proverb against him, and say, Woe to him that increaseth that which is not his! how long? and to him that ladeth himself with thick clay! 7Shall they not rise up suddenly that shall bite thee, and awake that shall vex thee, and thou shalt be for booties unto them? 8Because thou hast spoiled many nations, all the remnant of the people shall spoil thee; because of men’s blood, and for the violence of the land, of the city, and of all that dwell therein.

9Woe to him that coveteth an evil covetousness to his house, that he may set his nest on high, that he may be delivered from the power of evil! 10Thou hast consulted shame to thy house by cutting off many people, and hast sinned against thy soul. 11For the stone shall cry out of the wall, and the beam out of the timber shall answer it.

12Woe to him that buildeth a town with blood, and stablisheth a city by iniquity! 13Behold, is it not of the LORD of hosts that the people shall labour in the very fire, and the people shall weary themselves for very vanity? 14For the earth shall be filled with the knowledge of the glory of the LORD, as the waters cover the sea.

15Woe unto him that giveth his neighbour drink, that puttest thy bottle to him, and makest him drunken also, that thou mayest look on their nakedness! 16Thou art filled with shame for glory: drink thou also, and let thy foreskin be uncovered: the cup of the LORD’S right hand shall be turned unto thee, and shameful spewing shall be on thy glory. 17For the violence of Lebanon shall cover thee, and the spoil of beasts, which made them afraid, because of men’s blood, and for the violence of the land, of the city, and of all that dwell therein.

18What profiteth the graven image that the maker thereof hath graven it; the molten image, and a teacher of lies, that the maker of his work trusteth therein, to make dumb idols? 19Woe unto him that saith to the wood, Awake; to the dumb stone, Arise, it shall teach! Behold, it is laid over with gold and silver, and there is no breath at all in the midst of it. 20But the LORD is in his holy temple: let all the earth keep silence before him.”

 

 

 

The Money Bag

        It was a dreary day. I woke up tired from working a long shift with the elderly as a certified nurse’s assistant. My daughter was sick and I needed to visit her at the hospital. The drive to the hospital took half an hour. I normally would have thought nothing of it, but this week I needed gas money. I dreaded getting out of bed, but managed to get up and take a quick shower. I was mumbling to myself out loud, “How am I going to go visit that girl? I just don’t have enough gas and besides that, she needed coca-cola, soap and more personal things, God this just won’t work”.

As I was getting dressed, a voice whispered to me, “Wear your black outfit today, yes , and use your black purse you purchased at that garage sale 3 weeks ago”.  Well, I really wanted to wear my blue outfit, but what’s the use.

The clock was ticking and I just didn’t know what this day would be like. I switched my brown pocket book to the black one that I bought at the garage sale for only 10 cents. As I began moving things into the black leather purse, I zipped one of the inside areas. As I placed my hand inside, I pulled out a bill that was hiding way down deep. “WOW,” I shouted, “Wow, it’s a  $50 bill!” I could hardly believe it, He had answered my prayers again, right in the nick of time—isn’t God good! I rushed out the door, hurrying to Walgreens to get the items I needed. The drive was pleasant and wonderful and my daughter and I even got to have a lunch together. Philippians 4:19, “But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.”

 

 

 

Almost Burger Murder

        It was the summer of 1985, in Hollywood, Florida. My three children were relieved that school was out and we all chipped in together to do house work. I loved the mangos and avocados that hung ripe on the trees in my back yard. The birds were chirping and it was the best day that I had had in a long time. It was 85 degrees and I played my stereo most of the day listening to Andre Crouch and the Staple Singers. My only son was preparing for work and was excited about his summer job at the local Burger King. I know he wanted to save money for his first car. As he headed out the door for work, the girls and I watched a movie together. A few hours later, I got this overwhelming premonition that I should pray. The Holy Spirit was prompting me to pray for my son immediately. I asked the girls to join me, and we prayed as commanded by the Spirit of God. I wondered about it, but felt relieved that things would be OK. After the movie, we all climbed into bed. Later I heard my son come in, and all the lights went out for the night.

Next morning as I was preparing breakfast, my son burst into the kitchen doorway. “Mom, you will never guess what happened to me last night at work!” “Well, what happened?” I asked. “Three guys came in and had everyone lay down on the floor. They took off everyone’s jewelry, watches and things. Later, this big guy demanded that I get the money out of the safe that was beneath the floor. Mom, he placed this gun against my head. Then all of a sudden he dashed out of the building as fast as he could and I was OK. Everybody was OK, can you believe it?” “Son, I believe it. Last night, the Holy Spirit prompted me to pray with your sisters and we didn’t have a clue what was happening, but we obeyed. I am so glad I responded. I can see the angels came and rescued you, how happy I am to see that you and the others are fine,” I replied to my son. Isn’t God wonderful and caring?  He protects us in our time of troubles. What a wonderful God we serve!

Psalm 91, “He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.

2I will say of the LORD, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust.

3Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence.

4He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth shall be thy shield and buckler.

5Thou shalt not be afraid for the terror by night; nor for the arrow that flieth by day;

6Nor for the pestilence that walketh in darkness; nor for the destruction that wasteth at noonday.

7A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee.

8Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold and see the reward of the wicked.

9Because thou hast made the LORD, which is my refuge, even the most High, thy habitation;

10There shall no evil befall thee, neither shall any plague come nigh thy dwelling.

11For he shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways.

12They shall bear thee up in their hands, lest thou dash thy foot against a stone.

13Thou shalt tread upon the lion and adder: the young lion and the dragon shalt thou trample under feet.

14Because he hath set his love upon me, therefore will I deliver him: I will set him on high, because he hath known my name.

15He shall call upon me, and I will answer him: I will be with him in trouble; I will deliver him, and honour him.

16With long life will I satisfy him, and show him my salvation.”

 

 

An Angel of Light

        Parenting is not an easy job. Ask a number of parents today and I am sure they will agree with me. God made many wonderful people across this planet and universe. The world is full of beautiful, smart, intelligent creatures. I think of Adam and Eve and all the luxury of living they had before the fall. That same serpent, Lucifer is up to the same old tricks today. This story will remind you of the fact.

My son was left behind at home on this glorious day. I had some errands to do and demanded that he stay put until his sisters arrive from school. I will let him tell this story:

“My mother went out. I know it wasn’t the thing to do when Gary arrived at my door. “Man let’s go to the pool,” Gary begged. It was so hot, I  hesitated and let him talk me into it. After all, the city pool was only blocks away and I would get back home before anyone else. The city pool waters felt so good to my skin. There wasn’t anyone else there that day. Gary and I had the pool all to ourselves. Gary was a good swimmer and he paraded all over the chlorinated waters. I was enjoying the moments until I gagged and I lost my focus and pains cramped my legs. I tried to go up to the surface, but  kept going down. Out of nowhere, this figuration jumped into the water and drew me out very quickly. I looked back to observe this person and they were nowhere to be found. WOW! I shouted out loud. Who was that? Then I remembered mom taught me about angels. It was an angel, it had to be an angel of God. Angels are really real and I believe in them today. There are demonic angels as well as holy angels. When Satan was cast out of heaven, a third of the angels came with him. We must always pray with discernment. It’s best to obey your parents as Colossians 3:20 says, “Children, obey your parents in all things: for this is well pleasing unto the Lord (Yahweh).”

I could have died that day. I was saved because God sent an angel.”

 

Ephesians 6:1-4, “Children, obey your parents in the Lord: for this is right. 2Honour thy father and mother; (which is the first commandment with promise;) 3That it may be well with thee, and thou mayest live long on the earth. 4And, ye fathers, provoke not your children to wrath: but bring them up in the nurture and admonition of the Lord.”

Proverbs 13:1, “A wise son heareth his father’s instruction: but a scorner heareth not rebuke.”

Proverbs 8:32-36, “Now therefore hearken unto me, O ye children: for blessed are they that keep my ways. 33Hear instruction, and be wise, and refuse it not. 34Blessed is the man that heareth me, watching daily at my gates, waiting at the posts of my doors. 35For whoso findeth me findeth life, and shall obtain favour of the LORD. 36But he that sinneth against me wrongeth his own soul: all they that hate me love death.”

 

The Perfect Storm

        It had been a rough year. My husband, Bob, was sick and I thought he was getting better. Bob and I had just celebrated our 6 year anniversary on April 11, 2005. We were making plans to travel to Florida and return and visit his mother in Delaware. After all of these years going to Sabbath school, meeting strangers that he had photography appointments with, it seemed his energy was shot. His name was Robert Lanier Campbell, but he loved for people to call him “Bob”.

Bob loved getting up and rising up to see the sun come up over the hills that faced our mountain home. He just could not stand living in the city after residing here in the beautiful mountains. He talked about how he left the cement streets of Wilmington to breathe fresh air. He loved rafting the white waters of the Arkansas River. I can remember hiking all over 11 mile Canyon and beyond the trails of Cheyenne Canyon and Helen Hunt Falls near Colorado Springs, Colorado. Robert never skipped out of an adventure, and he forced me to go with him. He worked a full-time job, did his own graphics business which he called, “Right Angle Graphics” and nicknamed it, RAGS. He loved photography as well, and enjoyed taking photos of the kids that participated in junior league football or baseball.

Out of all the pleasures in Bob’s life, he loved teaching Sabbath school at Palace of Peace Seventh-Day Adventist Church located in Colorado Springs, Colorado. Rain, snow, sleet—he never missed teaching if he was assigned, and drove the 75 miles to be a part of that congregation. Robert made many friends and acquaintances while living in El Paso County. He also was favored by many in Fremont county where I still reside today.

I will never forget the last moments of his life on planet earth. During our trip to Florida, Bob was excited to see the ocean once again. He rented a white Dodge Bentley Coupe and took off to Boca Raton to see the white beaches. As we were sight seeing the yachts along AIA, he stopped and took photos with his digital camera. It was a beautiful grand occasion when my brother drove Bob and myself down to South Beach, Miami. The sun was streaming and the waters was glittering as the beaches were full of diverse peoples of all races and ethnicities.

After leaving Florida, Bob came back to his mountain home and passed away on August 28, 2005. I was shocked, I thought he was getting better. He was so full of energy and life. He was gone now and I was trying to cope and get his funeral arrangements in order. It wasn’t easy. I drove to Colorado Springs to talk to Christian friends for some assistance and contacted my professor at University of Phoenix where I had been attending classes for 2 ½ years. I called my son to tell him the bad news. “Mom, I am going to need a suit,” Joe stated. I drove down to meet him at my bank and gave him a check for $150. “Don’t worry about it, God will give it back real fast,” I replied.

I had found letters written by Bob, in the house near his computer. The letters said that a big storm was coming, something that only God could save you out of. I still have the letters, and I can remember Hurricane Katrina came the next day after Bob passed. I was trying to collect his suits that were in the closet to take down to Goodwill to donate to the hurricane victims. As I pulled the suits out the closet, I noticed a long white envelope on the floor of the closet. I quickly picked it up and looked inside, “WOW, I screamed, it’s $150 cash!” Isn’t God good! I had given my son the money to buy himself a suit. Just think, to find an envelope with Bob’s initials on it and $150 cash stuffed inside. God never ceases to supply our daily needs and desires!

Romans 8:35-39, “Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? 36As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter. 37Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us. 38For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, 39Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”

 

 

 

 

The Printed Page

        Today, I celebrated my 59th birthday. Taking a walk down memory lane came floating through my mind. Remembering all the hot, steamy mornings when I would put on my two-piece suit and go witnessing for the Lord, on the streets divided between Broward and Dale County located between Ft. Lauderdale and Miami, Florida, in the summer of 1982. I was slimmer, trimmer and full of life back then. I loved the Lord with all of my heart like I do now, but I just had this song in my heart and dance in my step. I could not wait for the sun to rise so I could go knocking on somebody’s door. Sometimes my legs felt tired and my face was full of sweat, but nothing could take away the magic that Yahweh and I had together. Just when I thought my day was over, Yahweh would bring me to another exciting dilemma.

One time I was waiting in my car after walking all over those long dreary, pot-holed streets. His whisper came out of nowhere, just landed upon my ear, “There’s a man inside the Safeway store that you need to meet and give a Steps to Christ to today”, the Voice echoed, “He will be wearing a polka dot shirt and be with his wife.” I am just like a child. I obey his voice when I hear him. Sometimes I can mess up, especially when I ignore the voice or just get lazy and don’t carry out his orders. Today was one of those days, when I could have made a big mistake. I was tired, I just wanted to go inside and pick up a few items and go home. I had picked up the Steps to Christ  and pitched it into my purse. When I arrived inside the grocery store, I saw this little old lady, and I approached her, and said, “Ma-am, you like to read?”  “No,” she replied, “Honey my eyes are deteriorating, sorry!” I felt like putting my foot into my mouth. And the voice came again from Yahweh, “This is not the person I told you to give the book to.” Wow, what a God we serve. After skipping around the various corners in the store, I spotted the man, described just like the Holy Spirit said. He was wearing a brown polka dot shirt and a lady was with him. I was so excited, I walked right up to the lady, “Hello, I am Marner, and you may think that this is crazy, but the Holy Spirit of God told me to come find this man, and give this book to him, he is your husband, right?”  The lady just jumped with joy, and shouted. “If the Holy Spirit told you to give it to him, well, give it to him!”  From that time on, I try not to avoid the voice of God.

I have had a few more of these experiences. Back in 2008, I had three more of these same type of “divine appointments.” I was restless one morning, tired from working, but missing out on something. I prayed to God for a few minutes that morning. I was still in my sleeping gown. The Holy Spirit awakened me with that voice, “Get up, get dressed, I want you to take The Perfect Storm to someone, do it quickly,” the voice demanded. “When you get in your car, don’t pass them, you may have to make a U-turn; he will be walking with someone or a dog. He will be wearing a red shirt, you can’t miss him.” Isn’t the Lord good? I rushed to my car and drove up the road, and just as he told me, the young man was walking with another guy about his age. He was wearing this red shirt and I stopped to pull my car over, but had to make a U-turn. I smiled, because Yahweh knows us so well. I hopped out of the car, and left it running. “Hey guys, how are you? Boy, you are really special. I woke up this morning and the Holy Spirit told me to come look for you and give you this!” The boys both looked at me with shock, and took the booklets from me. I will never forget the look on their faces.

The following week, I was commanded to go the city park. It was a Sunday, and I was bored. The Holy Spirit whispered and said, “I have a mission for you today. Go to the city park, and you will see a turquoise blue metallic automobile, you can’t miss it. They need these books right away.”

When I approached the park, I saw the car right away, but I didn’t see anyone near or in the car. “Lord, what now?” “Go next door, the gate is open, and you will know what to do.” There was a parking lot full of people getting ready for services at this church that I had never seen. I introduced myself and said, “I was sent here by the Holy Spirit, and the Lord wants you all to have these booklets. The gentleman that I met told me, “We are so happy for these books, we are just beginning to study the Book of Revelation, and Pastor Smith will be glad to have them.”  They received about 25 copies of The Perfect Storm Is Coming. I was beaming with joy and thanked the Lord for using me and uplifting my day.

 

Note: The booklets: The Perfect Storm is Coming is a book about America headed for Armageddon, and history and biblical facts on ENDTIME events that all of us will be facing soon. Steps To Christ is in print today under the name: Finding Peace Within. You can order these books at: www.theperfectstormiscoming.org

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Riches of Secret Places

It had been a hard time adjusting to my new single life since the death of my late husband. I was hoping to find a job in the field of my Bachelor of Science degree. All of my life I had wanted to counsel others to help them in areas of distress. Certified Nurses Assistant work was pleasant at times and I had endured it for over 22 years. The Lord allowed me to meet many wonderful people all across El Paso and Fremont counties. I had met doctors, lawyers, instructors, professors, nurses, ministers, captains of the military, homemakers, artists, policemen, scientists and dozens of dogs and cats. I even met a gentleman who was a second cousin of Abraham Lincoln. Nursing is an exciting and interesting occupation, but it doesn’t pay as much as I was hoping to make.

One day, I really wanted to move back to my country house near Westcliffe, Colorado.  But I was working two jobs trying to catch up on my bills. My roommate was nice and very cooperative in helping me adjust to widowhood. We became friends and life was a little easier than it could have been. Life goes on and Jesus is in control. My 2004 Dodge needed maintenance, so after work one day I dropped it off at a mechanic that one of my clients suggested to me. The gentleman loaned me a mini-van till he finished my car. Well, I received a call from the mechanic; he suggested that I take the car to the Dodge dealership because the part wasn’t available.  After I arrived to pick up the car, I noticed that I could not get the car cranked. I had to call a tow truck to deliver it to the Dodge dealership. I was so frustrated. I demanded my money back since they could not fix the problem. The Dodge dealership solved the problem within 3 hours. I told them I would pick the car up after work that day. When they quoted to me the price, it was more than the other mechanic had quoted. What would I do? No more money would be available until next month.

I was finishing my job at a client’s home in Monument. Snow was on the ground, and I was trying to figure out what to do about paying for my car. I started praying to Yahweh in my mind just briefly. “God, what can I do now, I will need that car to get back and forth to work, and I just don’t have the money, can you help me NOW, I need your help now dear Lord,” I repeated over in my mind. Later, the doorbell rang at my client’s home. My roommate had arrived to pick me up to take me to pickup my car from the Dodge dealership. My client’s mother asked to see me before I left. She handed me a knot full of something in a envelope. “Marner, I have been meaning to give this to you, since this may be the last time we see each other, as I mentioned we are moving back to Iowa next month,” she exclaimed. I took it gratefully and hugged her neck as we approached the door to leave. When I got into my roommate’s car, I excitedly looked inside the envelope and there was cash. I counted it out to be $68.00. I screamed out loud, “Yes, just enough to make up the difference to pay for my car repair. Isn’t God good!” My roommate looked at me and said, “How do you do that? How do you get others to give you money?”

I will call my roommate Lucy. Lucy had remembered another story that happened to me, similar to the one above. I was attending church one Sabbath. As I entered the congregation, the Holy Spirit directed me to sit up front in seats close to the front. It was peculiar because I never sit up front. It thrilled me to sit in the back with my praising buddies. We always would praise God in the highest, raising our voices and singing boldly to the throne of God. But I had learned to listen to that “small still voice”, because it never led me wrong. As the Sabbath services began, a couple came and sat by me and handed me an envelope. I was puzzled because I didn’t have a clue what this could be about. The gentleman and his wife usually affiliate with the prison ministry groups that visit the prisons every other week. I had once asked him to give me an application to fill out so I could minister at the prisons. I had once participated in prison ministry while in Montgomery, Alabama, one summer and thought it would be good to get involved again.

I took the envelope and tucked it in my purse and thought to view it later when service was over. When church was over, I went straight to open the envelope. Inside was cash in the amount of $300. “Wow, Lord, what is this for?” The Holy Spirit whispered, “Remember, you have taxes to pay.” I just almost flipped. I went to find the couple and thanked them. The wife commented, “You are so special, because the Lord told us that it was time to do a ‘thanks offering’ and we were to give it to the person that sat by us at church today.” I was so happy and praised God the rest of that week.

Another time, I needed gas to get to church. My car was on ‘E’. I told Lucy, “Well, it’s on E now, but it’ll be full before I get back”. And sure enough, someone would walk up to me and place a $20 bill into my hand. Lucy just could not believe it. So when God provided my client’s daughter to give me funds to top off what I needed to get my car out of the shop, Lucy just stared at me and said, “How do you do that? How do you get others to give you money?”

Jesus says to ask and it will be given, seek and you shall find, knock and it will be opened unto you. All I ever do is ask. A lot of the time, I praise and cry out to Him. A lot of times HE says no, or wait, but most of the time, if it’s a need—he fills my plate. Isaiah 45:2-4, “I will go before thee, and make the crooked places straight: I will break in pieces the gates of brass, and cut in sunder the bars of iron: 3And I will give thee the treasures of darkness, and hidden riches of secret places, that thou mayest know that I, the LORD, which call thee by thy name, am the God of Israel. 4For Jacob my servant’s sake, and Israel mine elect, I have even called thee by thy name: I have surnamed thee, though thou hast not known me.”

 

 

 

All I Need is $10,000!

The 80’s were tough and the going got rough. I had been working with my spouse doing a janitorial service. The money was good while it was coming. But the times were crazy and spontaneous with hard knocks. The stocks were tumbling and my cleaning contracts were diminishing weekly.

The big boys were buying out the small janitorial businesses in Colorado Springs, Colorado, and my debts were piling up. I loved the janitorial industry but when in Florida, I noticed that the competition was more plenteous and I had many Jewish clientele. Colorado just could not compete with Florida’s tourist trade.

Jesus said many times, “I shall supply your needs.”  Sometimes it seems like the impossible and then you begin to wonder, ‘HOW’ Lord? With all these bills and so few clients to service my pockets, I just scream out and wonder, ‘HOW’ and ‘WHEN’ Lord? I had almost given up and decided on walking away from my business and just go back to college for a better degree. More bad news came when my daughter got sick and had to be hospitalized in the midst of the fall of the year, 1993. Well, I really cried out to God and said, “Are you testing me?” I just don’t know why and I just don’t know how.

Out of the blue the phone rang. It was one of my customers who wanted to change their cleaning schedule. We struck up a conversation and one thing led to another. Deb has mentioned that she was doing pretty good with the changes in the economy and was thinking of taking a vacation to Texas to see relatives to get away from the Colorado cold. I told her, “I wish I was doing as well, all I need is $10,000,” my voice echoed. “Oh, Marner, that is all you need?” she responded.  “I can give you $10,000, she yelled out with joy!” I still remember the moment when I walked into ENT Federal Credit Union and walked out to my car with ten thousand dollars in cash. I was elated, I was sitting on clouds of heaven. How and why was answered.  My God supplied my needs and some of my wants. And that same month, my ex called and placed my daughter on his insurance and her hospital bills were covered. I received a double blessing—NO a triple blessing. Deb and I became not only business friends, but personal friends. We have been friends for over 20 years now. She resides in California now, but we pray and talk often.

1 Thess. 4:11-12, “And that ye study to be quiet, and to do your own business, and to work with your own hands, as we commanded you; 12That ye may walk honestly toward them that are without, and that ye may have lack of nothing.”

 

 

 

 

One Stormy Night!

My radio was blasting Rudolph the Red-nosed Reindeer, as my little red Volkswagen beetle was rolling along as fast as it could on Hwy 287. My children were quite small at the time, and we were leaving to head home after the Christmas play ended. I wasn’t in the mood to attend the Christmas play, but JJ had a leading role and urged me on. “Mom, you have to go, I am playing one of the three wise men,” he begged me. Well, here we were heading down that dark highway. The weather was nice when we first headed out that evening. I can’t believe how beautiful the Colorado skies were that day. I guess this is why they call it, “Colorful Colorado”. One minute it can be as lovely as autumn leaves and merry blue birds and the next few hours can turn into an ugly snowstorm. The kids were playing merrily in the back seat, and I was getting worried. It seemed like the darkest night that I had ever seen in all of my life! Snow was beginning to fall, and the temperature was dropping. I reached to turn up the heat, and before I knew it, we were in a ditch but miraculously, the beetle hopped back on the road. It was icy and the snow was falling fast, and my visibility was poor. I wanted to pull over and just wait, but thought maybe I should continue on. Blankets of snow were falling, and I felt a strong arm on the wheel. The children were sleeping on top of one another. I prayed the whole time, asking for safety and guidance on the treacherous road. As I turned the last corner, I could spot the porch light beaming in my pathway. God is so wonderful, so protective and awesome. I was happy to be back home safely in my warm house with my children. This Bible verse came across my mind as I was putting the children to bed that night: Philippians 4:4-7, “Rejoice in the Lord alway: and again I say, Rejoice. 5Let your moderation be known unto all men. The Lord is at hand. 6Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. 7And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


My beloved is white and ruddy, the chiefest among ten thousand

(Song of Solomon: 5:10)

 

Life is crazy, disappointing, furious, pain-staking, unbearable, indigestible, mysterious, penniless, inadequate, enthusiastic, and dull at times.

I had my share of relationships that turned out being all the words above and more.

My first marriage rewarded me with three adorable children that sometime hates mom for choosing the wrong partner. My second marriage helped me raise the same children that blamed their stepfather for correcting them, and keeping them out of jail. My third husband was a delight in the Lord and was a friend to my children. He passed away with cancer a day before Katrina blew in and damaged most of New Orleans coast in 2005.

 

I made it through 4 rough years spending insurance money on unpaid bills, food, water, clothes, a new car, car repairs, and firewood. Jobs were slow and I decided to leave my little country house and rent a room in the city of Colorado springs, so I can work a few certified nursing assistant jobs.

 

I was tired of living alone, running back and forth and trying to forget the scenes of my tortured deceased spouse as he laid on his hospital bed on August 28, 2005.

I remember singing hymns to him, I talked to him, and I asked the Lord questions. ‘Why now, and what will I do with the rest of my life?’  I was only 53 years old and really didn’t feel like being a widow, not now, not ever. And I can remember Bob saying, “I want to be around when all the bad stuff hits the fan.”

Robert L Campbell was a decent man who loved the Lord. He loved helping others and serving others. We use to walk the streets of Canon city and hand out Bible tracks to folks. We attended all the Charles Wheeling Prophecy Seminars for the last six years together. Bob’s wish was to see the appearance of Jesus Christ appear in the sky. He wanted to be a martyr for Yeshua if possible.

Many weekends we took drives together to hunt down the perfect little country house so we wouldn’t have to remain in the cities during hard, crazy, evil times on this earth. Bob sold his city home and we purchased the small house near the San de Cristo Mountains.

During Bob and I last married day together, he held me close in that hospital room and we hugged like two little kids on a playground and laughed out loud together. And the last words he said to me was “ Go and find yourself someone else and have fun Marner, don’t cry over me!”

 

 

As the weeks flew by, the days and nights amounted to endless boredom.

I was going crazy trying to work three part time jobs. My clients were dying, and I decided to start dating again. I joined a dating site online and waited for replies.

 

I got three replies one week and decided to talk and chat to this Larry gentleman. He was into football, track and his kids. Larry mentioned that he had been divorced about 2 years and his wife had moved to North Carolina.

He worked many hours running his own business, managing rental properties in the Colorado Springs area. He loved his three children and had to pick them up from school and hired babysitters occasionally to assist them when he wasn’t available. Larry called me for about three weeks, and we decided to meet and have dinner one Saturday.

 

I was nervous about all these new connections, but it seemed like fun for a while. Larry was a big, tall black gentleman. He walked up to greet me and we sat in this crowded Spanish restaurant. There was a buffet in the middle of the floor, arranged with salads, tortillas, ground beef, pork, corn on the cob, red peppers, enchiladas, Spanish rice, and other goodies!

We both ate heartily, and Larry didn’t seem as articulate as he was on the phone. Finally, I asked him did he attend church often. He replied, “Not really that often, but once in awhile I take the kids to Sunday School.”

I noticed that he was a kind man, but I could not see us going out again. I wasn’t attracted to him in any manner whatsoever. I just can’t pretend, and I can’t see any future here. I thanked him for the dinner and shook his hand, and that was the end of that.

 

My next date was just as bad as the first. Billy was a black gentleman that lived on the Air Force Base, who had just retired from the military a few months ago. He was excited about getting his pensions and rewards for all the 35 years he had been in the military. He talked and talked about it at the table. We met that day at the Village Inn and he was in a hurry to attend his 18 year old’s graduation that was being held in Denver.  He paid for his lunch and mine and gave me a kiss on the cheek and said he would call me again, but he never did. I really could have cared less, he wasn’t my type at all. Funny, Billy mentioned that his daughter was born on the same day as my birthday, I wonder was that a bad sign?

 

Well so much for dating, I was not into that stuff anymore. It was making me more tired than my three part time jobs. If it was meant for me to have another man in my life, Yeshua would have to show me the way.

 

After the death of Robert, I just could not get it together. I kept meeting crazy folks that lied to me, abused me or mocked my God. The year 2005 disappointed me over and over and didn’t seem to stop. I decided to live at the country house until old man winter changed my mind again. I had taken a job in Westcliffe, deciding that this would allow me to live continually in the mountains that I had desired to do forever. After the 10-inch snowstorm passed by almost leaving me to have to shovel snow, fall down and drop dead, my mind changed fast. I drove to Colorado Springs in the middle of the day, without even going back inside my house to get extra clothes or draining my pipes, fearing I may fall in the deep snow. It would have been terrible to have fallen, having no one to find me. My house was in a valley, and when the snow would fall, it would cover me up, camouflaging me like a polar bear at the North Pole.

 

After moving back to Colorado Springs, I visited the small congregation of Messianic believers on Saturday morning. I enjoyed the fellowship and the worship service was awesome. I was beginning to get accustomed to hearing Paul Wilbur anointed songs and praising Yahweh and Yeshua in complete adoration. What an awesome GOD we serve! I was staying at my daughter’s place and needed to find other living arrangements. Before leaving that Sabbath, I met a nice lady that I decided to rent a room from. God had answered my prayer that fast.

 

My new roommate was pleasant and we enjoyed networking together as well. I met many new people at the congregation each week and began to feel somewhat comfortable being in the city again. It’s so funny how God works. Everyday, he can load us with many benefits as it says in Psalms 68:19. My new room was very clean, decorative, and I could celebrate the Feast Days and Sabbaths with my roommate. She was a widow as well, so we shared some things in common. Yeshua had indeed supplied all of my needs once again. Phil. 4:19.

 

In 2007, I fell at work, but it didn’t seem to stop me from walking, so I didn’t go in to be checked. But the following four months, I was aching all over and decided to complain to my boss. My boss suggested going in and getting checked since it was recorded in the incident report. After the checkup, the workman’s compensation nurse thought I just needed to lose a little weight and did nothing for me. So the following 2008 and 2009 I just had made up my mind to work in pain. The summer was hot in 2009 and I just tried dating again after meeting this gentleman at the library. I never thought I would have dated him at all, since he was of Caucasian descent.

 

The Holy Spirit had whispered to me, “Go by the library today when you take your break.”  I really didn’t want to. I had just gone to the library Friday, and today was Monday. I followed the Holy Spirit and I was so glad I did. I sat at one of the computers and the white guy in front of me was on a computer, viewing ‘ENDTIME PROPHECY’ material. I was so amazed. Everyone else was looking at dating services, photos of families, or playing computer games, but this guy was looking at prophecy and Bible related information.

I watched him awhile and I continued on with my research. The Holy Spirit whispered again,” When he gets up, you get up, don’t let him get away from you.”

After fifteen minutes had passed, this white person got up. I got up and followed him towards the door at the front of the library. “Hey, I was observing your computer and noticed you like prophecy stuff,” I stated.

“What church do you attend?”  We conversed, introduced ourselves and exchanged phone numbers. I shared some dvd’s on Endtime Prophecy from Charles Wheeling Prophecy Seminars.

 

Later that week, we got together and visited my church for Bible study one night. The next day we took a long walk in the canyons of El Paso County parks. The next week we went out to dinner. Some days we would send text messages and meet for a movie. I just could not get enough of this white guy. I just loved his company and his conversations in the Lord.

 

Yeshua kept giving me these confirmations from the Scriptures, Song of Solomon 1:7, “Tell me, O thou whom my soul loveth, where thou feedest, where thou maketh thy flock to rest at noon: for why should I be as one that turneth aside by the flocks of thy companions?”

 

One Sabbath we attended another congregation and the church was told to sing DANCE WITH ME,by Paul Wilbur. The same words in the book of Solomon, chapter 1:15 came to mind that the Holy Spirit showed me that following morning. Confirmations on confirmations were shown to me.

 

Yeshua is so forgiving, even when we don’t forgive ourselves. I had many relationships and many loves, but finally my true love had come along. Gene and I were good friends, companions and loved each other unconditionally.

We were married on July 5, 2009, at a small Messianic congregation in Canon City with only the angels as our witnesses and the Rabbi and his wife.

Nothing is impossible for Yahweh. If we could only just believe! I am so happy in spirit and soul today, more than all the past marriages put together. I am rich with wonder and the wealth of Yeshua. He will provide all of your needs according to His riches in Christ Jesus. Phil: 4:19.

 

 

Song of Solomon 2:8-13, “8The voice of my beloved! behold, he cometh leaping upon the mountains, skipping upon the hills. 9My beloved is like a roe or a young hart: behold, he standeth behind our wall, he looketh forth at the windows, showing himself through the lattice. 10My beloved spake, and said unto me, Rise up, my love, my fair one, and come away. 11For, lo, the winter is past, the rain is over and gone; 12The flowers appear on the earth; the time of the singing of birds is come, and the voice of the turtle is heard in our land; 13The fig tree putteth forth her green figs, and the vines with the tender grape give a good smell. Arise, my love, my fair one, and come away.”

 

This passage reminds me of my spouse so much. We both love the mountains and reside here today. Autumn has arrived and winter is coming. How blessed we are together in each other’s arms. Praise you Yeshua! Thanks for all that you have given us. Good neighbors, food, shelter, clothing, trees that blow in the breeze, and the Sangre De Christo Mountains to keep us close to you.

 

Below is one of my favorite Psalms. I sing it often. Now you can too!

 

Psalm 121

A Song of degrees.

1   I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help.

2   My help cometh from the LORD, which made heaven and earth.

3   He will not suffer thy foot to be moved: he that keepeth thee will not slumber.

4   Behold, he that keepeth Israel shall neither slumber nor sleep.

5   The LORD is thy keeper: the LORD is thy shade upon thy right hand.

6   The sun shall not smite thee by day, nor the moon by night.

7   The LORD shall preserve thee from all evil: he shall preserve thy soul.

8  The LORD shall preserve thy going out and thy coming in from this time forth, and even for evermore.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Mighty Everyday Miracles!

 

One day I just wanted to visit my grandson, Ethan, and I had nothing to give to him. I whispered a prayer, “ Oh Lord, all I need is $5 to take Ethan a little something. It’s been awhile since I saw him and I would love to take him a small gift.”

On my way to my car, I noticed the wind was blowing extremely hard. The autumn leaves whistled and danced in the wind. As I turned the key in my car door something said, “Look behind you, look down on the ground.”

As I looked a five dollar bill was blowing in the leaves on the ground. What a wonderful God we serve!

 

I wanted to attend church as usual on Sabbath. I know my gas tank was on ‘E’. I told my roommate, “I don’t have gas now, but I will have some by the time I get back!”

After church was over, a lady came up to me, and said, “ Marner here’s a twenty dollar bill, I know you are always needing gas!

God forever rewards his children that put their trust in Him. Psalm 68:19 quotes: “Blessed be the Lord, who daily loadeth us with benefits, even the God of our salvation.” Selah.

 

Thinking back when I was 7 years old, I was outside playing on my father’s freshly cut lawn. It was hot, and I wanted an ice cream cone. The ice cream man was coming down the street, I could hear the music from his ice cream van. “Dear Lord, all I want is a quarter to get some ice cream!” Out of nowhere, a dollar bill floated in front of me on the grass. It was then that I believed in a God Who hears our prayers. He not only gives you what you need, but more besides!

 

Back in the late 70’s, I was going through a divorce with my first husband. I had three children to feed, because my spouse decided he wanted to get his own apartment. I just didn’t know what to do financially. I had never worked, but had stayed home and taken care of the family. Now that my spouse had gone, what will I do? The Holy Spirit gave me a Scripture to read in Jeremiah 32:26-27, “Then came the word of the Lord unto Jeremiah, saying 27Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh: is there anything too hard for me?”

After that, my doorbell rang. It was Sharon, my Christian friend that I had met a few weeks ago. “The Lord told me to bring you over this cash and some food”, she shouted!

I just could not believe it! I was out of milk for the kids and needed the cash for gas! And later that evening the doorbell rang again, and my neighbor brought me vegetables from her garden!  Isn’t God good?

 

In the early 80’s I did evangelistic work on the streets of Ft. Lauderdale, Florida, and Dade County near Miami. I sold Bibles, and gospel materials through the Seventh Day Adventist Conferences. I totally enjoyed knocking on strangers’ doors and praying with them as well as offering them books that would lead them to the Lord.

One day I came upon a big black Doberman in a gentleman’s yard. I rang the doorbell and the gentleman was angry! “How did you get in this yard? That dog will tear you apart!” he shouted.

Yehweh stated that He will protect his children. Psalm 91:11 comes to mind that says: “For he shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways.”

The dog just smiled at me that day and his master was astonished!

 

One day I was shopping at the local Safeway store in Canon City, Colorado. I was in a hurry to get on the road before dark and picked up a few needed items: milk, bread, eggs, meat, toilet tissue, lettuce, tomatoes and picked out a ripe watermelon. When the cashier rang up my grocery items, my credit card was declined. I went to the ATM machine to try another card. It also came up as declined. Sorrowfully, I went back to the cashier deciding to walk out as I came in…..with nothing. “Maam, the groceries are yours, the man standing behind you in line paid for everything!” she exclaimed.

Wow, what a mighty God we serve! I was just so amazed and know God had sent along an angel. I asked for the man and wanted to thank him, but he was nowhere to be found.

 

As my new spouse and I were moving into our country house, bills were falling behind, including the mortgage. I had an incident at my new job and fell later, losing my job. My spouse was hunting for work for weeks and nothing prevailed. Daily we prayed to Yahweh, asking for jobs, money and whatever miracle He could bring. “Heavenly Father, it is written that you shall supply all of our needs, and this is a need. The mortgage is due and we can’t pay it, can you help?” The next week I received a mortgage statement in the mail and the balance showed that two payments had been paid in full. How can that be? One thousand-four hundred dollars was paid for 2 months of mortgage! Nothing is too hard for God! The following months, I received checks from my lawyer and the insurance company that covered my injury. How can we doubt the God that made us? How can we not trust His words? I was so astonished that I shared the testimony at my local church on my next visit.

 

It was the year 2007. I was living in Colorado Springs. I wasn’t feeling well that day. I needed a miracle. I made a serious mistake, and I confessed to Yahweh and Yeshua about my ordeal. Yahweh states that when we pray in secret, he will reward us openly. Romans 8:26-27 states, “Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groaning which cannot be uttered. 27And he that searcheth the hearts knoweth what is the mind of the Spirit, because he maketh intercession for the saints according to the will of God.”

Wow, what a divine Father we all have! I prayed and waited as long as I could wink my eyes three times. A stream of fire came down over me and touched my body from head to toe. I was healed instantly from my maladies. Halleyeshua! Yeshua!

 

It was storming in Houston, Texas during the summer of 2007. I was excited about visiting my families in Ft. Lauderdale, Florida. I don’t know what happened, but my itinerary wasn’t showing up on the computer, and I missed my connection flight. What does a single woman do? I had saved my last dime to buy my ticket. I didn’t have any extra money to stay over. Just as I was thinking all the wrong things, I rebuked the thoughts and prayed silently. The airline stewardess escorted me to a shuttle bus that took me to a luxury Hilton Hotel and gave me free meal tickets for a good night’s rest and told me to meet the shuttle bus downstairs at 5 am to connect for my flight to Ft. Lauderdale. Plus, on top of that, I got to ride in a first class seat on my way to Florida. What a man, what a man, what a mighty good man echoed in my head all the way to my mother’s house. I felt like a rich Israelite. And this verse comes to mind. Romans 11:1, “Say then, Hath God cast away his people? God forbid. For I also am an Israelite, of the seed of Abraham, of the tribe of Benjamin.”  Never, ever doubt the love and care of Yahweh!

 

I love Volvos! What a well-built car I thought I had. It had a big sliding square sunroof. There were double vented air-conditioning with rugged blowers that filled the whole car with cold, crisp, air. The seats were heated. And most of all, the stereo had a deep bass and clear audio speakers surrounded the back and front and sides. I was so in love with my metallic mid-night blue 960 4-door sedan. I had made up my mind that I would keep it another five years after having the transmission rebuilt. I was riding one day and pushed the turbo for that extra thrust……and wow, what happened?

I had a warranty, no problem I thought to myself. I drove over to the transmission shop. I found a sign on the door, “out of business”. Now, what will I do? The next week that Volvo was creeping. I just happened to be passing the Volvo dealership and my car huffed and puffed into the parking lot. I spoke to the salesman and told them the story. I had bought this car a few years back for $5,000 cash. I had spent another $3,000 to get a rebuilt tranny six months ago. When they checked my credit, they would not give me a car loan. I was so frustrated. I had a new job to start next week in another county. I really didn’t want to walk anywhere. And I hated taking buses to work. Oh God, what will I do now? The Spirit whispered to me, “Tell him you will be back Monday.”

Monday morning, I showed up and they ran all my credit checks again. The sales guy came out smiling, “Hey I guess your God really loves you, we found a bank that will give you a loan!”

They drive the 2004 Dodge Stratus around to the front. It was mint green, has an air conditioner, cloth seats and only 29,000 miles on it. I was happy, happy, happy to be born in the USA! I am still driving it today and God really gave me a pretty nice car. It was so good not to be walking or thumbing a ride, or taking a bus. Thank you Lord Jesus. (Yeshua)

 

Matthew 22:32 says, “I am the God of Abraham, and the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob. God is not the God of the dead, but of the living.”

 

Psalm 103

A Psalm of David.

1   Bless the LORD, O my soul: and all that is within me, bless his holy name.

2   Bless the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits:

3   Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases;

4   Who redeemeth thy life from destruction; who crowneth thee with lovingkindness and tender mercies;

5   Who satisfieth thy mouth with good things; so that thy youth is renewed like the eagle’s.

6   The LORD executeth righteousness and judgment for all that are oppressed.

7   He made known his ways unto Moses, his acts unto the children of Israel.

8   The LORD is merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and plenteous in mercy.

9   He will not always chide: neither will he keep his anger for ever.

10 He hath not dealt with us after our sins; nor rewarded us according to our iniquities.

11 For as the heaven is high above the earth, so great is his mercy toward them that fear him.

12 As far as the east is from the west, so far hath he removed our transgressions from us.

13 Like as a father pitieth his children, so the LORD pitieth them that fear him.

14 For he knoweth our frame; he remembereth that we are dust.

15 As for man, his days are as grass: as a flower of the field, so he flourisheth.

16 For the wind passeth over it, and it is gone; and the place thereof shall know it no more.

17 But the mercy of the LORD is from everlasting to everlasting upon them that fear him, and his righteousness unto children’s children;

18 To such as keep his covenant, and to those that remember his commandments to do them.

19 The LORD hath prepared his throne in the heavens; and his kingdom ruleth over all.

20 Bless the LORD, ye his angels, that excel in strength, that do his commandments, hearkening unto the voice of his word.

21 Bless ye the LORD, all ye his hosts; ye ministers of his, that do his pleasure.

22         Bless the LORD, all his works in all places of his dominion: bless the LORD, O my soul.

 

In 2007, I was restless, worried, and wondering how I was going to continue paying my mortgage, bills and buying food. My jobs weren’t steady and I was working 2 part time jobs with different agencies. I had been doing certified nurses assistant jobs for over 25 years and really wanted to do something different. But as I searched, nothing seemed available. I had just graduated from the University of Phoenix in January of 2007. God had blessed me to finally finish my Bachelors of Science in Human Services. I had attempted to finish this degree between three marriages and three children, and found myself starting and stopping a few times. One family member was sick occasionally and I had to drop classes and put my degree on hold.

 

I continued working as a certified nurses assistant and researched for employment in human services, but nothing prevailed. I just prayed and watched for another miracle. I would always try to pay my tithes and offering – no matter what. Sometimes it just seemed impossible to pay anything at all, but I know God was faithful and would deliver me like always!

 

On my day off, I was singing and playing my gospel music. “I will praise you forever, forever, forever…..only you can satisfy!” I chorused out loud.

Immediately, the phone rang! I noticed it was from the Delaware area. As I answered the line, it was Robert’s mother calling from Wilmington.

“Hello Marner, what is your bank account number?” she asked. “I want to wire you some cash!” Jesus never fails! She wired me $3,000. I never had a clue that she, being a widow herself, would give me that amount of money. She had sold her home and was moving into an assisted living unit. Trust and obey and never be afraid. Hold on, hold on children, remember, He’s a living God! Psalms 33:9, “For he spake, and it was done; he commanded, and it stood fast.”

 

 

Revelation 1

1The Revelation of Jesus Christ, which God gave unto him, to show unto his servants things which must shortly come to pass; and he sent and signified it by his angel unto his servant John: 2Who bare record of the word of God, and of the testimony of Jesus Christ, and of all things that he saw. 3Blessed is he that readeth, and they that hear the words of this prophecy, and keep those things which are written therein: for the time is at hand. 4John to the seven churches which are in Asia: Grace be unto you, and peace, from him which is, and which was, and which is to come; and from the seven Spirits which are before his throne; 5And from Jesus Christ, who is the faithful witness, and the first begotten of the dead, and the prince of the kings of the earth. Unto him that loved us, and washed us from our sins in his own blood, 6And hath made us kings and priests unto God and his Father; to him be glory and dominion for ever and ever. Amen. 7Behold, he cometh with clouds; and every eye shall see him, and they also which pierced him: and all kindreds of the earth shall wail because of him. Even so, Amen. 8I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the ending, saith the Lord, which is, and which was, and which is to come, the Almighty.

9I John, who also am your brother, and companion in tribulation, and in the kingdom and patience of Jesus Christ, was in the isle that is called Patmos, for the word of God, and for the testimony of Jesus Christ. 10I was in the Spirit on the Lord’s day, and heard behind me a great voice, as of a trumpet, 11Saying, I am Alpha and Omega, the first and the last: and, What thou seest, write in a book, and send it unto the seven churches which are in Asia; unto Ephesus, and unto Smyrna, and unto Pergamos, and unto Thyatira, and unto Sardis, and unto Philadelphia, and unto Laodicea. 12And I turned to see the voice that spake with me. And being turned, I saw seven golden candlesticks; 13And in the midst of the seven candlesticks one like unto the Son of man, clothed with a garment down to the foot, and girt about the paps with a golden girdle. 14His head and his hairs were white like wool, as white as snow; and his eyes were as a flame of fire; 15And his feet like unto fine brass, as if they burned in a furnace; and his voice as the sound of many waters. 16And he had in his right hand seven stars: and out of his mouth went a sharp twoedged sword: and his countenance was as the sun shineth in his strength. 17And when I saw him, I fell at his feet as dead. And he laid his right hand upon me, saying unto me, Fear not; I am the first and the last: 18I am he that liveth, and was dead; and, behold, I am alive for evermore, Amen; and have the keys of hell and of death. 19Write the things which thou hast seen, and the things which are, and the things which shall be hereafter; 20The mystery of the seven stars which thou sawest in my right hand, and the seven golden candlesticks. The seven stars are the angels of the seven churches: and the seven candlesticks which thou sawest are the seven churches.

 

Matthew 5

1And seeing the multitudes, he went up into a mountain: and when he was set, his disciples came unto him: 2And he opened his mouth, and taught them, saying,

3Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. 4Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted. 5Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth. 6Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled. 7Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy. 8Blessed are the pure in heart: for they shall see God. 9Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God. 10Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness’ sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. 11Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake. 12Rejoice, and be exceeding glad: for great is your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you.

13Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men. 14Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid. 15Neither do men light a candle, and put it under a bushel, but on a candlestick; and it giveth light unto all that are in the house. 16Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.

17Think not that I am come to destroy the law, or the prophets: I am not come to destroy, but to fulfil. 18For verily I say unto you, Till heaven and earth pass, one jot or one tittle shall in no wise pass from the law, till all be fulfilled. 19Whosoever therefore shall break one of these least commandments, and shall teach men so, he shall be called the least in the kingdom of heaven: but whosoever shall do and teach them, the same shall be called great in the kingdom of heaven. 20For I say unto you, That except your righteousness shall exceed the righteousness of the scribes and Pharisees, ye shall in no case enter into the kingdom of heaven.

 

2 Peter 3:8-10,“But, beloved, be not ignorant of this one thing, that one day is with the Lord as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day.

9The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance. 10But the day of the Lord will come as a thief in the night; in the which the heavens shall pass away with a great noise, and the elements shall melt with fervent heat, the earth also and the works that are therein shall be burned up.”

 

Psalms 95:6-11, “My prayer today is:  O come, let us worship and bow down: Let us kneel before the Lord our maker. For He is our God; and we are the people of his pasture, and the sheep of his hand. To-day if you will hear his voice, Harden not your heart, as in the provocation, and as in the day of temptation in the wilderness: When your fathers tempted me, proved me, and saw my work. Forty years long was I grieved with this generation, and said, It is a people that do err in their heart, and they have not known my ways: Unto whom I sware in my wrath that they should not enter into my rest.”

 

Come return into the Lord, and repent! Romans 10:9-10 says, “That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. For with the heart man believth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made into salvation.”

 

Yeshua (Jesus) says in John 4:13-14, “Whosoever drinketh of this water shall thirst again: 14But whosover drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst; but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing up into everlasting life!”

 

 

About the Author

Marner R. Campbell-Benjamin

Marner Rae Harvey grew up in Ocala, Florida where she graduated from Ocala High School, known today as Forest High School. Marner has always enjoyed writing as far back as grade school. Marner’s first published work was inspired by her 7th grade peers. The booklet was entitled, AS I SEE IT, a collection of poetry on nature, God, and jingles. An article was published in the News/Sun-Sentinel, Ft. Lauderdale, Florida in June, 1985, entitled, Christian Poets Meet to Share Work and Spirit, featuring Marner Rae, by The Christian Poetry Association of America. In 1986, Marner’s work entitled, Jesus Is The Only Way Out, was published in an anthology called: The Christian Poetry Association of America. Marner has recited at churches, parties, weddings, and has appeared on local and national television. In 2002, she appeared on CBS, Channel 11 in Colorado Springs, Colorado, on the noon show with other artists celebrating Black History Week.

Marner earned a Psychology degree in Gainesville, Florida, in 1972. Over the years she has worked with the elderly as a Certified Nurses Assistant and enjoys working with Alzheimer’s patients. She recently received her Bachelor of Science Degree in Human Services from Phoenix University. Marner has volunteered her time at National Alliance for the Mentally Ill (NAMI), teaching classes that educate the public on mental illnesses. She has interned at Family Crisis Services, Inc., located in Canon City, Colorado, where she has volunteered helping women with domestic violence and rape crises in Fremont and Custer counties. Marner has three grown children and four grandchildren. Her hobbies include internet research, cooking, reading biblically spiritual materials, and writing poetry. In the future she plans to write children’s stories prompted by her first booklet of poems. Her next book will consist of love creations.

 

A Time To Be Born

A Time to Be Born

Marner Campbell-Benjamin

Copyright 2012 All Rights Reserved

 

 

 

 

 

Acknowledgement

A Time To Be Born is dedicated firstly, to

Ann Marie Banks, my deceased 7th grade teacher who inspired me to write all through grade school. I give this book to my children: Delana, Celeste, Joseph Jr., and Devin, my grandson, whose name means poet.

My arms reach out to my mother, Doreatha Harvey, who is a minister, educator, grandmother and great-grandmother!

Remembering my father, Eugene L. Harvey, who was an evangelist, educator and poet. I chap for my brother “Geno” who always protected me from strange guys while I was growing up, his wife Carolyn who is a faithful friend, the sistah I never had. Candidly, I thank Deborah Skinner for being beside me through many financial and emotional storms. Robert Campbell, I give my late husband, friend and mediator my love, who took the time to inspire me along the way. Last, but not least, I thank God my Maker and Creator, who carried me through hurricanes, tempests, valleys, and showed me the way to the mountain top.

I thank Him; I praise Him for all that He has done in my life, because without Him, I CAN DO NOTHING!

Blessings to my nephew, Starbuck, and niece, Colonda and all the many aunts, uncles, cousins, and friends that have encouraged me to—NEVER GIVE UP!

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Introduction

All of my life I have wondered about the universe and its powers. I remember days when I wanted a dime to buy ice cream, I probably could have asked my mom for a dime, but I dared to ask the universe!

A few of those days I could see whole dollars floating onto the fresh cut lawn, out of nowhere! I hope that you have experienced a teeny bit of this magical experience.

 

People amaze me, all their different nose sizes, teeth shapes, rugged hands, soft hands, acoustic ears, wide eyes, beady eyes, and then there is color oh, what talent my God has! Hues of gray, olive skin is what my biology teacher once said; red is my favorite color along with yellow, then white goes along with everything!

 

Black is a power color which stands for everything and more; rhythm, boldness, fearless, no fear would be more like it, but I don’t want to forget the nice chocolates; there are so many nice chocolate flavors of people perfecto! This book isn’t about color, but it affects us all! God is no respecter of colors, He created us all. My God loves variety! How dull this life would be without this great artist!

 

I’ve tested so many religions: Baptist, Methodist, Jehovah’s Witnesses, 7th Day Adventists, Church of God in Christ, Non-denominational, Church of Latter-day Saints (Mormon), Pentecostal, served at a Jewish Passover, and last but not least, a Jesus-freak at age 19. I’ve been frustrated and loved by them all, but I’ve known a universal God! One whose power belongs to all humans. A Time to be Born was written through all my experiences, through all my disappointments, through all my trials. Life is beautiful, even though we all take it for granted at times.

 

In this life it gives me great, triple, supercharged energies to share my soul with you! Let’s explore life, let’s give some of ourselves back to this prolific, grandeur Universe! The Force, the power of God, loves you. Reach out to Him! Experience this magical, mystical MOVEMENT!

 

You are here, PEOPLE, to find out who you are! You are a very powerful ray that extends from our Creator and His allies of this Universe, the whole World!

 

Why DIE when you can FLY!! There’s A Time To Be Born!!

 

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About the Author

Marner R. Campbell–Benjamin

 

Marner Rae Harvey grew up in Ocala, Florida where she graduated from Ocala High School, known today as Forest High School. Marner has always enjoyed writing as far back as grade school. Marner’s first published work was inspired by her 7th grade peers. The booklet was entitled, AS I SEE IT, a collection of poetry on nature, God, and jingles. An article was published in the News/Sun-Sentinel, Ft. Lauderdale, Florida in June, 1985, entitled, Christian Poets Meet to Share Work and Spirit, featuring Marner Rae, by The Christian Poetry Association of America. In 1986, Marner’s work entitled, Jesus Is The Only Way Out, was published in an anthology called: The Christian Poetry Association of America. Marner has recited at churches, parties, weddings, and has appeared on local and national television. In 2002, she appeared on CBS, Channel 11 in Colorado Springs, Colorado, on the noon show with other artists celebrating Black History Week.

Marner earned a Psychology degree in Gainesville, Florida, in 1972. Over the years she has worked with the elderly as a Certified Nurses Assistant and enjoys working with Alzheimer’s patients. She recently received her Bachelor of Science Degree in Human Services from Phoenix University. Marner has volunteered her time at National Alliance for the Mentally Ill (NAMI), teaching classes that educate the public on mental illnesses. She has interned at Family Crisis Services, Inc., located in Canon City, Colorado, where she has volunteered helping women with domestic violence and rape crises in Fremont and Custer counties. Marner is married to Gene Benjamin II and has three grown children and four grandchildren. Her hobbies include internet research, cooking, reading biblically spiritual materials, and writing poetry. In the future she plans to write children’s stories prompted by her first booklet of poems. Her next book will consist of love creations.

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Part I

Inspiration
A Time To Be Born

 

Sometimes life is full of tears and it’s full of woes,

It can be so demanding till it clinches your toes.

Be thankful for the heartaches, be gracious when you mourn

Don’t give up, there’s a time to be born!

The weather can fall below freezing, the temperature can soar real hot,

Your pillows can get soaked wet but thank Him for what you got.

You may find yourself needing many more kernels on your corn

But still keep pushing, there’s a time to be born.

Look up to the heavens call upon this Man,

Give it to the Son that really understands.

When the moments come when you’re tattered and torn,

Thank God for Jesus, there’s a time to be born!

An a.m. Prayer

 

Don’t let the morning pass by you,

Don’t let the dew meet your shoe.

Please say something to the Master…

Say something to the Master. Say something to the Master,

He might say something to you!

Don’t forget to say our Father help me through this day,

People are really crazy when Satan is leading their way.

Don’t forget to understand that whatever we may do

That God gives us the strength and while we are traveling

We need His Holy length,

Don’t ever let the morning pass by you.

Don’t let the dew meet your shoe,

Say something to the Master, say something to the Master,

Hey, Say something to the Master, say something to the master,

He will say something to you!

Knowing The Time

 

We can walk among the streets and crime will snatch us from our feet. I am sure by now you know everything that looks like honey – isn’t sweet.

The world is in a terrible endeavor even the planets, sea and earth quiver. These troubles must all come to pass, thank God and Jesus they will not last.

We just have to make a sudden stop straighten out our lives, be sincere with God if we want to reach the top.

All the races are at war and wars have been going on for years. Inflation, depression, suicides and days of endless fears.

We are a special people way down from Abraham’s seed. Don’t dump yourself just because the circumstances bleed.

Just because some people seem to have everything. Just because you’re tired and fed up and Satan down here is king.

Don’t you give up. Just get yourself right with God, because when it comes right down to it God owns the Master Rod.

So what about all the riches? Big deal about all the gold. Because not one little penny could ever buy a soul.

Jesus says, “I am the way the truth and the life. No man cometh unto the Father except by me.”

Now man may try other methods, but Jesus owns the key.

So wise up and shape up, get your Bibles out study God’s word. Tell it on the mountains, make sure it gets heard.

As long as we stay grounded upon this sickly earth there are going to be hard, hard times for you and I and all who give birth.

So until the oceans cease and every living thing is grieved, is our salvation nearer than we first believed?

The earth may shake, the sun may bake and all the planets stay lined up, but church I pray with you that we all continue to drink from Jesus’ cup.

What Am I Gonna Do?

 

As I see prophecies coming through the world is really all mixed up. Oh like the Bible says real corrupt. The Pope has had a real field day kissing the ground before he pray.

Boy, what am I going to do?

As I see prophecies coming through, 1 Thessalonians 5:3 talks about what’ll happen when they make peace, yes the Bible says it will be rapid and all the things will cease.

The earth will reel and then it will rock as we continue to evolve around the clock. My knees sometimes knock when I vision it. The evil masses playing the Devil’s pit.

What am I gonna do?

Now that the prophecies coming through Daniel say that the vision of the Ram and He goat is at the end. As you read Daniel 8:17, you can see where we’ve been. The dreadful beast power would think to change times and laws (Daniel 7:25) but my Savior won’t allow him to trample with his paws. The new law will bring about an economic crisis (Rev. 13:17) as Satan uses and brings out all his devices.

Whew, what am I gonna do?

As I see the prophecies coming through there will be wars, rumors or wars, famines, pestilence and earthquakes (Matt. 24) Oh I read somewhere that winters will seem like summers, the sun will bake. I just feel like giving God great adoration, praises, adoration, adoration. Yes like now pleading for forgiveness of sins before the close probation. Soon and very soon Heaven will bring rewards and collect what is His own (Rev. 22:12) all things will be moved and every knee will bow before the cornerstone. Friends and earth what are you gonna do as you see the prophecies coming through?

When should we prepare to meet Christ? II Cor. 6:2, says now is the time of salvation study to show ourselves approved, knowing all of Daniel and the book of Revelation so you may wonder, Who is God’s church? Are all of them the same? Matthew 18:20 states, where two or three are gathered in my name. Famine will come, not only for bread, but for the hearing of God’s word (Ammos 8:11 & 12) wake up. Keep his Commandments; it’s time for present truth to be heard. I know what I’m gonna do, now that the prophecies are coming though.

A Higher High

(Two teenage girls are having a conversation)

 

“Child that was good sermon today, did you hear what he say, what he say?

I just don’t have the talent; I could never say those things.

I could never really witness or tell others about Jesus,

No, but I can sing.

To each his own I reckon, but tell others NO WAY!

Boy, he was on FIRE when he preached today.

“He acted like Paul when stood before the King, he was so confident, having no shame

And he had the nerve to tell us God wasn’t pleased,

And we needed much prayer and fasting and staying on our knees.”

Girl how would it really feel to have FIRE in your chest?

Never hardly fearing, but giving God your best.

I read my Bible some of the time, especially when I’m scared and don’t own a dime.

But I wonder why others seem to have a ball of fire,

And it appears God is their only desire.

Don’t Miss Out

 

The people are so afraid of what is hovering over their heads, they go out from day to day and they see happenings on their way:

People dying from the liquor instilled in their souls,

People dead from wounds of bullet shot holes.

Cars crash into you from some unsettled mind,

The faithful ones in shock, they don’t call the divine.

People, we seem so afraid, of what is hovering over our heads,

The sun still shines no matter what troubles exist

The moon still shows at night and takes the risk.

Jesus made us to shine,

Jesus didn’t make us to always whine.

We shake and shudder when things come into our path,

I fear no evil although I walk through the shadow of death.

The Lord says woe to those that try to save themselves!

We have a job, a job to do

The people outside suffer from lack of truth.

Sit Down

 

Knock-knock

Who’s there?

Who me? I’m the Holy Ghost. I’ve come to be your host.

Sit down my child let me talk with you a while.

 Now my angels tell me, you’re pretty dead. Lately, you don’t use your head. You don’t read the word like you used too; you’re sipping again on Mr. Who.

Now look my time isn’t long and Satan is getting kind of strong.

But look, don’t you listen to the evil one

Because he’s laughing all the time you’re having fun.

This world will end with a reel and a rock then I won’t be able to say knock-knock.

So please sit down a while, listen to me my child.

The storm is brewing in the sea, so son, you better grab a knee.

Bow down to the almighty God because he is the Master Road.

Stop this nonsense and straighten up.

Remember to drink from Jesus’ Cup. Put this booze and smoke away.

Wake up, sleep down, always pray.

Now remember at times when you are weak and low and Satan tells you where to go.

Remember I’m the Holy Ghost and I love being your host.

Sit down my child listen for a while.

By now I hope you understand why I had to take a stand.

You were really going out the door.

If you did, I couldn’t do more.

The Holy Ghost won’t force anyone but leads them always to the Son.

Now that you have another chance I hope, you’ll turn to the Holy dance.

Now remember what I’m telling you my friend

Flee from the Devil, Flee from sin.

Sit down, sit down my child. You must stop growing wild.

The angels take down all you do, please walk in the Jesus shoe.

Yes, Yes, I’m the Holy Ghost I love being your host.

So use me each and every day I just love it when you pray.

So child, now you can get on up I know you’re glad when I interrupt.

The Tree

(Two Young Men Meet In Conversation)

 

Hey, what’s happening Brother, what ya doing under this tree, with the Holy Book in the midst of thee?

I know you don’t believe what the good book say all that jive about Jesus being the way.

 Look at the world which we live in, people with cocaine, robbing banks, killing men.

Satan is the one who’s cool, this Jesus is a fool. The Bible says he made this place, the people giggled and spit in his face. Lucifer is a tough dude, He wouldn’t take none of that, he would beat them up and kick them where they sat. Man you better live it up, enjoy your life, be hip.

I’m telling you, there’s nothing to this Jesus trip. My mother, my Aunt used to read that jive, now they’re dead, not even alive.

Who wants a man who can’t protect and save his own. All I need is this cocaine when I want to get stoned. Going to church wearing a tie and a suit, this is what it takes to look really cute. No, no, Jesus ain’t for me my man.

 Even if I somehow sorta understand. I need a job so I can buy some wheels. I need money so my girl friend can cook my meals. Look, didn’t mean to interrupt, just telling you how I feels. Now, do you and your Jesus have better deals?

Yea, my friend, you’ve got it wrong. It’s a good thing you come along. You know Satan can fool your mind. He loves to see the blind leading the blind. But Satan’s time is running out. So let me tell you what it’s about. Satan’s got everybody today doing their thing, so they won’t have time for the King. You said yourself he made this place, so why can’t He solve your case?

Things are all in control of God, but Lucifer surely will make it hard. Think about how this three was planted, the sun, the stars, life we take for granted. Satan came to destroy and kill, but Jesus is the freedom pill.

 Sin is what causes death, crime and all the rest. But Jesus, He loves you, remember HE passed the test. You need to really accept HIM, be Born Again!!

That is, admit you’re a failure. He’ll free you of sin Brother. I’m young like you, I know how you must hurt. Satan hates us all, he loves to give us dirt. He pretends to love you just to make you his fool.

But we’re much happier when we obey God’s rules. Hey man, what’s the use, I’m a survivor, but why do it the hard way when Jesus is the reviver.

Just pray this prayer with me, say, just you and me, this tree? And let Jesus listen, and he’ll set you free! Father in the name of Jesus we come to you asking you to forgive John’s sin. Accept him Lord make him yours. Lead him with your Holy Spirit now and forever. Amen. Amen. Hey Jesus is all right.

He said the truth will set you free. Hey thanks man, thanks for being under this tree.

Selfish Ways

 

 

Cure my selfish ways Lord, I know that I am wrong, but I do know that you can make me strong.

Teach me to give and take and turn the other cheek.

Help me grow faithful, help me to be meek,

So please take all the scales off me so I can learn to share.

I desire to be loving and to always care

So clean my fins and gills out good so I can really swim.

Teach me Heavenly Father to really swim like Him.

Now I know I’m happy I have some joyful days,

Oh thank you, Heavenly Father for curing my selfish ways.

God, I Do Want You

It appears that my heart is changed and I’m turning day by day,

But please try and understand me.

Listen to what I have to say, I need you to still guide me.

Please stay, stay beside me, GOD I do want YOU.

Understand life has been hard. Oh yeah, it’s been rough

And these days are here where I’ve had enough

Can’t buy this – can’t buy that, can’t have a place to sit my sat,

GOD I do want YOU!

These folks that are running the country are all screwed up.

They don’t care about your holy sup.

Oh Lord, why is this happening to me, just because I want more,

I just want to be free.

GOD I do want YOU.

I remember those days when you would send angels my way.

I remember real well you taught me to pray.

Days, when I could have been dead, if I hadn’t heard what you said.

Oh GOD, I do want YOU!

You took me when I was just a child. You made me special when life was wild

When trouble came and hassled me you were there with the golden key.

Oh yes, GOD I do want YOU!

Now that I’m growing and still have pain, I have to now and then look back again.

When you first grabbed me and kissed my soul, took my sins away and gave me control.

I could never forget you NO WAY. I’ll need you forever, as I do today.

YES, GOD I DO WANT YOU!

The Rising Son

 

I see many people as I walk on by

Some look sort of happy – some want to cry

I look up to the God above, I thank him for his outpouring love!

I know that He will surely come – but the people, they won’t come

They think and they worry, some pray all day – they don’t ever seem to say

I can do it – I can make it! All they do is just, fake it!

Satan, he could care less about all the men that he has brought to death

As times ride along as they go

Never asking why? what? so. . .

We can really be ourselves through God – we can be a mighty, flighty powerful rod!

God is the One on the throne

No, no people we aren’t all alone

Because He’s the one man that has set us free

Yes, He died for all humanity

Oh, I smile and often grin because I feel His love deep within

I think of all the things He’s done for me

Oh, let me tell you how it can be with you loving God – God loving thee

As we walk among the earth

As we stand upon this crust

We walk and look above the sky

Surely, you must know

He died upon a tree

I know he didn’t forget thee

Jesus loves you with a love that no one else can possess

Jesus loves you with a love – no one else has passed the test

Christ – He died for you and me

Christ – He died for all humanity

Oh, the man – he loves us so

Oh, aren’t you raging to go?

Go to the place where there is no more scare

Go to a place where nobody knocks you down and enters in

Slur you nastily and say they’re going to kill you then

God’s the Mighty, Mighty One

To you – to you – to you I bring

I love the man

He lives in my mind – I know that He is awfully kind

If we could only just let Him be

Let Him live in our humanity

God, Yes, He’s the Rising Son

Without God – NOTHING COULD BE DONE

So just accept this man I know

Let Him live beyond your foes

Just let Him rise upon your bed

Let Him say “Oh child please stay!”

Satan thinks this world belongs to him

But God has made, oh – ALL THINGS!

And God goes to prepare a place

For ALL YOU PEOPLE WITH SHINING FACE!!!

Things Aren’t Bad

 

Are you feeling down-hearted and aggravated?

Have you been having triple tribulations?

Don’t you know, things aren’t bad

Unless you never had Jesus

The psalmist used to write his songs,

Stay up all day and all night long.

But he often said to himself

Things aren’t bad unless you never had Jesus.

Your bills are piling up real fast,

How long Lord will these things last?

Hey, things aren’t bad unless you never had Jesus.

The world is on a motor boat,

It’s riding along without taking note.

That things aren’t bad unless you never had Jesus

So smile and relax and share some fun,

Call a friend and give away some sun.

Because honestly things aren’t bad unless you never had Jesus.

No, Not One

 

(Inspired by Luke 18:18-19; John 8:7; 1 Samuel 2:2)

Maybe you don’t gamble

Or light no kind of smokes

Or go to X-rated movies

Or tell no dirty jokes

Maybe you don’t steal or

Never killed a soul

Don’t drink no liquor

Don’t lose your self-control

Or maybe even – you’ve never told a lie

Never once slept with somebody else’s guy

We all would love to live – I guess – a perfect life

Putting away all hatred, all anger, all strife

It’s funny how we all point our fingers to our neighbors

When we criticize them – we say we’re doing them favors

One time some persons called my Jesus “good” – not meaning to bother

Jesus interrupted and said no one is good – except for the Father

So next time we decide that we’ve been really good

Don’t forget to give the credit to whom we know – we should

Now there are some of us that have grown a lot more than others

But this doesn’t give us permission to put down our brothers

Let’s just thank the Lord for all that he has done

Forever praising Him for sending us his Son

Let us pray for ourselves that we grow closer to Christ

Please if you can try to remember this advice

Our lips can kill a person quicker than any gun

Remember we all are sinners – no, not one

Oh, I love Jesus – He’s the Holy One

Even though he was without blemish

Still he said – no, not one!

Yes, the Master knows – all the places you have been

So stop your struggling with your sin

Thank Him people again and again for what He’s done

Remember we all bleed – No, NOT ONE!
I’m For Hire

Child, my grandma used to say “You must give your all-in-all,

You must keep climbing, or you will fall.”

I know I have my little mistakes and sometimes I lie and sometimes I fake.

But girl, don’t you want a higher high? Don’t you want to reach the sky?

I think the preacher was maybe right, let us both ask the Lord tonight.

God you know, is no respecter of persons.

He wants us all to go, but it’s left up to us to open up his door.

It’s left up to us to tell Him what we want and if we don’t, I guess He won’t.

You know girl, that’s fair enough, God is allright, He isn’t too tough!

Hey, where are you going?

I’m going home and tell the King,

I’m for hire; I’m tired of living off somebody else’s fire.

Amen, Amen.

 

Part II

Love
Love Will Stay

 

I’m always in love with you

 this little way

It’s hard to write down

 it’s hard to say

I remember when I was your used-to-be

Me loving you,

 you loving me

All you had was mine,

 we shared alike

Oh, yeah, the days of fast cars

 and motor bikes

You are my special one to dream about

But I know it’s over with and out

Once gained, once lost

I’ll always remember you as my friend

How we met,

 yeah, how it end

The days at the hospital when Joe Jr. was born

Moments of laughter, jargons of mourn

You were always too pretty for a man,

I told you so

At the beginning I should have let you go

So many highways and dirt roads

 that you and I had been

I pray that God will forgive us both for our past sins

Love has its way of staying

Even when you don’t want it to

But guy, I’ll remember yeah,

I’ll always remember you

From that day

Love will stay

In this little way.

Love is the best thing God,

 the Creator, has made

and the most powerful word anybody has said
Love Is Better

 

Diamonds

 Riches, gold, I have none.

But I shine freely,

Like the sun.

My peace of mind is priceless to me,

Nothing could exchange for non-misery.

Jesus is a good friend of mine.

 He doesn’t like his children crying.

He takes care of His own…

 

He does the best!

 He is king, remember He passed the test.

Love is beautiful that’s all that matters.

God knows beside nothing, love is better.

Diamonds, riches, gold, I have none.

But I shine freely like the sun.

Fall Down

 

It’s allright in life to fall down,

Fall down on the sidewalks.

Fall to your knees,

With a heart that will bleed.

It’s allright once in awhile,

I’ve been in love 4 times.

Trying to get it right,

This time I’ve met the right one.

This time he’ll be the one,

He’s the one man for me.

I know he holds the key,

It’s allright in life to fall down.

As long as we get up.

But I know this time he’s the right one,

This time he’ll be the one.

All of my cold, frigid nights are gone,

My days aren’t spent all alone.

Oh, I know this time he’s the right one,

God, I’m in love, help me stand up!
Can’t Stand It

 

Why do people hurt each other

as if they don’t have to have a reason,

Just do as they may please any time, day or season.

Well boy you’re hurting me once again and this will be my last sin,

Because I’m not taking you back again. I’ve been such a fool,

I know that you know what I know.

The little games are over, you’ll be the one crying when I shut this door,

It’s crazy how you act,

How you behave saying you’re a Christian you’ve been saved!

No, no, I can’t stand it; I won’t take it anymore!!

I’m fed up…

 I’m sore

 I don’t know what it is that you’re looking for!

For some mystical reason I’m not it,

I can’t stand it, I give up, I quit!

The moon is out tonight

 my feelings aren’t so right

Because you’re keeping your business to yourself.

Like you’re being stored on a candy shelf,

I’m through, I won’t take this!

 Yes, I quit

 I can’t stand it.

 

GIVING

 

Giving my time too much to those,

Who could give a damn.

Hello, how do you do sir

Yes, hello ma`am,

Tell me of the days when people cared.

Tell me back there when they truly shared,

I’m sure you know what I’m talking about.

When people would talk to each other, talk, not shout,

When apples tasted real good, the peels and all.

When people visited each other, they didn’t have to call,

Yes, I’m giving my time to those who could give a damn.

Can’t trust no one today, it’s always a scam,

Please just tell me about the old days.

When people seemed to have had different ways,

Today God isn’t even given respect!

People today have no manners, no tact,

While I keep on growing and while I keep on living.

I’ll still be finding ways that I can

KEEP ON GIVING.

Heartaches

Heartaches turn my insides gray.

They take my pleasures away.

What reason do I have to live?

What more can tears really say?

 

A Blessing

 

You took me through your jungles,

You fed me with your lies.

There were always those excuses that you sugar-coated with alibis,

It was really sad that I believed you.

I said “NO” he couldn’t really be missing, because I belonged to him.

But now that it’s all over – I see it really was a blessing.

The Rest Of The Story

 

I just can’t believe what is happening to us

No more respect, no more trust

The angry way you talk these days

Your quick temper, your evil ways

Love has come and hit home plate once again

To become shattered and spun like a pin

Why did I give all, I always do

Too good, too generous, a fool for you

Grey skies kissing a hazy sun

My heart is frying, racing a run

Just can’t believe what is happening to us

No more respect, no more trust

One day I’ll finally be happy, wait and see

As the record plays “You Know Me”

It’s gotta be a brighter and better way

I see the waves smiling in the bay

Yeah, I can feel it, my strawberry smile

I’ll get what’s coming, it’ll be worthwhile

OH, NO, I can’t believe what’s happening to us

NO MORE RESPECT, NO more trust,

I used to know that you would be the one

The only one that should, should last

The seams are falling all apart

The memories of us have sailed past

Oh, my love, what has gone wrong

Oh, baby, what’s melting down

That used to be so strong

I guess I’ll always wonder what it was that got in the way

So as a famous person loves to say

Good day, one day we may get the rest of the story!
Tired

I’m so tired of starting over again,

So tired out from love.

I’m so tired of starting over just to be hurt again,

Will I ever meet Mr. Right?

To hold me forever tight?

Someone who will love me.

Out of bed and in,

That one who’ll make me feel “over happy” again

I’m just tired.
No Respect

 

Yes, my respect is leaving,

Yes, my respect is nearly gone.

We prayed, we talked,

We stayed up all night long.

What will it take for you to be kind,

Yes for you to see that you’re killing my mind.

I used to love to say, I love you,

I used to love to say, you’re mine.

But at the moment

I’m trying to investigate where we went wrong,

HOW MUCH LONGER WILL WE GO ON WITH NO RESPECT?
Illusions

 

Can’t get no loving

Can’t get a kiss

Never thought my nights

Would end like this.

Here we are fighting once again

Why, why, does it have to begin?

I always can’t sleep on nights like this

I’m afraid I’ll get my favorite wish

I’ll end up dreaming I had you in my arms

Then I’ll get flabbergasted by my alarm!

 

Illness

 

Why do I love you?

Why do I care?

When you never notice that I’m HERE

You’re always too tired or something else

All you think about is yourself

Don’t make me turn from cold to freeze

You know it’s you I want to please

Don’t walk away from me

Can’t you see I love you, can’t you see?

That there’s an illness coming down?

 

Paint Me

 

Last night I had this bad-sad dream, I was trembling, came apart at the seam,

I was in this big Victorian house, it contained this big dead mouse.

I was like the mouse inside that house.

It was awful sad, I turned wickedly bad.

You see, all I ever wanted was for someone to listen to me

So I can recapture myself and be set free. No one had the time!

So many times I wanted to tell you I love you

But it seemed you always shoved me. You were always too busy, always too tired

I could see it in your eyes, you always lied.

I only want a personal touch

Like the Victorian house needed painting so much

Just needed you to brush my hurt away, to take my stains away

Through all this I could never say

Don’t let my dream come true, paint me, hold me, kiss me.

Just love me like I’ve always loved you

People kept coming to see how beautiful the Victorian house was

They marched up its steps and down.

They walked across the dark wood floors

They loved how the big rooms’ echoes sound. Parties were given throughout the year.

Christmas would come and go

The banisters were never shined or dusted, the carpets were never cleaned.

The house just needed a personal touch.

It needed love so much.

The roof would start to leak when the rain began to pour,

                        The paint began to peel off the exterior and the door.

Mom, this house is just like me

It’s crying out so much.

 I want to be loved,

Want to be loved by you so much.

Don’t send me any more to Camp David or to Grandpa’s farm.

I’m crying out, I’m losing paint; I just want you to paint me!

 

 

 

Love And Love Some More

 

There are many times in life that people can really hate.

We argue, we fight we fret until it’s too late.  That certain

Person is just sort of in your way. Don’t push them out,

Please begin to pray. Are you really wondering how you can enter that person’s door, so it can be quite easy if you would love and love some more. Why should I love him after what he’s done to me. He’s abused me, he scorned me, he’s put me down coldly.

Yes we all feel sometimes we are being cheated when we respect our foes. We say we love Jesus, we say we want to go. If we really do we would love, love some more. Even

If they disappoint you, kick you, spit upon your face, don’t hate them.

Remember you haven’t been in their place.

Jesus loves us, not for what we are, but for where we’ve been.

If you think about it as such, you’ll take this person in.

All of us are trying to find the way love, only he the Father can give it to us pure from above.

Treat your neighbor gentle even when they’re rough.

Treat your enemies jovial even if it’s tough.

If you want happiness for sure, Love.

Oh Love and Love some more, joy will fill your days, peace will fill your soul.

Your patience will grow, your tongue will be bold.

                                           Love, my friends, love and love some more!

 

 

 

Love

Love always brings its problems to haunt you down at dark,

Like stray dogs chasing rabbits in the middle of a park.

It’s always those hue days with incongruous eyes on you,

Just can’t understand it.

Love me till I drop.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Part III

Life

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The Poverty Prescription

 

 

Who needs the handouts that tease,

But do not please?

Who needs the bribing payouts that keeps you

Like a snail?

Yes, Uncle Sam is BIG DADDY who feeds you with

his sugar canes.

Steadily romances you, at the same time as he

Holds your hands.

It keeps you in its spindle like a spider

Spins its tab

And if you try to leave him

You may get hit by his jab

How can we escape this dosage that chokes

 Us as we sip?

Dream BIG, plan with GOD, climb mountains

Forget about the tip!

 

Making It Is Taking It

 

We sometimes get mad too easy, we sometimes

Give up too fast.

We hold on to tomorrows or hang back

In the past.

But we must learn to go through the dungeons,

Learn to swim straight through the caves.

If we fall down and get dirty

Stand up and be brave!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

My Dawning Day

 

I’ve had a lot of falls, but I know this time I’ll stand real tall.

The dream that I’m dreaming looks so mighty good,

I can see the stream pumping out its hood.

I see it fading out, this cancerous stupor,

Yes, yes, my dawning day is arriving.

It’s superb, splendid, elegant, grand, it’s SUPER!

 

 

 

We Are Mighty

 

There’s no one else like you,

Praise God, He makes us rare.

There’s no one else like you,

Oh how he really care.

So let’s straighten up our face,

And put on a smile.

Let the world know,

You are his child.

So, go ahead, act a lil’ flighty,

It is written.

We are mighty!

 

 

Persist

 

Have to keep right on going

Even when there’s no place to go

Got to keep on walking

Hoping there’s something in store

Can’t give up, got to keep moving along

Keeping my head up

Gotta stay strong

Have faith, take plenty of RISKS,

Remembering to persist, Persist,

PERSIST!

Take Me Away

 

That big bright, rainbow colored balloon came my way today,

Floated pass me, so high, up, up, so high in the sky.

I called out for it to land on my lawn,

Please, please, stop, I need you for my pawn.

I need the secret room away from it all,

I need your gaiety air balloon call.

Up, up, and away, let us go play

Please stop Mr. Balloon, stop, take me away!

Guns

 

 

They hang in galleries to show their face,

They can wipe out anyone, any place, any race!

They kill not knowing it’s to blame

Or that it’s leaving behind an unforgotten name,

Animals are enemies of the Gun.

They end up dead or on the run

GUNS, GUNS, GUNS, what a horrible invention.

Why can’t we stop and create a prevention,

Remember the Gun you tame should be your very own!!

Why Do I Have To Suffer Instead

 

It’s that time of month when I don’t have a penny but the bills I have sure are a plenty,

My babies need so many things I cannot name.

The way we try to make it surely is a shame,

Why do I have to suffer instead. Just to keep the coverings over my head?

Lord, you know I try and then I try again

Is it really bad to want more, is it a sin?

I work so hard sometimes I can’t sleep at night.

It all seems so painful I feel it isn’t right

Why do I have to suffer instead

Just to keep the coverings over my head?

I want to do so much but it seems I move so slow

Will there ever come a time when I can really let go

You know I love you being true and I’ll be worse off if I don’t have you

But why do I have to suffer instead

Just to keep the coverings over my head?
Groovy Friends

 

Groovy friends will make you sin, child stand back

Groovy friends will help you sin.

I say child stand back,

All their fancy dinners,

All their Rose’ Wine,

All their Rolexes and Lexuses,

All their dressings fine.

Groovy friends will make you sin, child stand back

Your stomach might just be aching for one of those New York Strips.

Please don’t let them fool you with their cocaine trips

Groovy friends will let you sin, child stay back

They love to keep you on Satan’s track.

They like to stick you with his tacks,

So next time you meet a groovy friend

Be careful that they don’t make you sin.

Poverty

 

It can choke you, not meaning to

Wake you up in the night.

Keep you from paying your bills,

Drive the woman you love away.

Make your Christmas dull and cold,

Keep you captured like a zoo gorilla.

Who can’t speak up for himself,

Poverty can’t be no friend of mine.

Always keeping you behind…..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Just To Be Somebody

 

I tried, I failed.

I tried again to clear this disease they call sin.

But for some unknown reason I’m still afraid I’m not good enough,

So I keep climbing and I fall.

I climb, I fall.

I climb, I fall and keep holding on to Jesus just to be somebody.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Fear

We look at all that happens,

We stay to ourselves, fearing, fearing what, fearing death.

Jesus has told us to witness and He will send angels to watch over us,

People, saints, where is our trust?

We must conquer fear through trusting our king

Or we’ll never make it to the Holy Land

God hasn’t given us the spirit of Fear,

Satan is in control of this place, you hear!

People are so afraid of what is hovering over their heads,

It’s high time to rise out of our beds.

The King will soon appear

Please, don’t miss out because of fear!